Toxic Love

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Jenny blinked at me, once, twice than laughed a nervously, ah that's what I liked to hear! I love to make people nervous, its my favorite past time.

"Wow Serena you're too funny!" She proceeded to chuckle a little under her breath. I smiled like nothing was wrong. In all honesty I hated this room, I hated her and I hated my parents for making me come here. This isn't some disease you can cure with a few therapy sessions. They were too dimwitted to realize that I wouldn't change for them or anyone else. Who could ever want to live a life full of empathy? Having other people's feelings dictate what you should and shouldn't do? That is not how I am going to live my life. 

"Have you told you're parents those words we spoke about?" Jenny raised her over plucked eyebrow. Those three little words would never escape my lips, why should they when love doesn't exist?I let  my shoulders drop a little, playing the victim here. I shook my head, "No, I'm scared. What if they say it's too late for that?"

God lying to her was so easy! "Oh no Honey! They love you very very much and that's why you're here! They want you to live a normal life, they want you to feel the emotions everyone goes through on a daily basis!" I nodded as she kept talking, my only thought was David. The way his mouth was slightly parted when he walked out, the red rimmed eyes and his clenched fists made my heart beat faster. I wonder if he'll be easy to lure him to me? It probably would be considering I look a lot better than your average girl and I know how to use it. I carefully pushed a strand of my caramel hair back behind my ear and licked my lips, tasting of strawberry lip balm. I couldn't wait to get going since Jenny was boring me to death even though the sessions not even over.

"Hey Jenny do you mind if I leave a little early? I have a huge paper coming up in English and I have to braid my sisters hair..." I let myself trail off hoping she'd get the hint that I didn't want to be here.

Without hesitation she let me go saying how she'll see me again shortly and how she'd love to hear about my family next time. I silently gagged as she said it but smiled sweetly.

"Sure! I'd love that!" and I raced up the icy steps into the bitter cold. The walk to my car wasn't a long one and it was completely worth it. He was still here, I saw his heaving shoulders through the windows of his beat up Jeep. God he made this way too easy, it's like he wasn't even putting up a fight. I straightened my pea coat and gently tapped my manicured fingers in his window. David looked up, startled by the noise. I gave him the best smile I could muster in hopes of gaining his trust. He quickly looked down, ashamed of the crying. 

"Hey, are you okay?" I contoured my face into concern. Frankly I could careless if he was crying, I actually enjoyed it. He looked up, "yeah I'm good, it's the weather...super cold." He couldn't meet my eyes. I giggled, "ugh I know! It's insanely cold! I guess I'll see you around then!" I turned to leave.

Step 1 was complete, he thought I was just another friendly girl trying to help him...Boy was he wrong.