The cold wind tickles the back of my neck, hairs taking a stand. I pull on the ends of my scarf. The coldness is nice. People walk around with tinted pink noses, holding hands with they're loved ones. Gross.
I hate seeing people sad, but I hate seeing people happy more.
It makes me jealous. I wish I could at least try to be happy.
I continue to walk around the school. The loudness of friends messing around continues but for what seemed like forever it got quite...
Everyone looks at me, I'm confused. There is nothing about me interesting so why look at me?
Then I realize...they aren't looking at me, there's something behind me.
I turn around to find a group of guys...5 of them to be exact. One of those guys is Jongsuk.
Those other guys don't go here, so those were the people he was talking about. The friends , 'They don't go here..' Jongsuk elbows his 'friend' in the side and nods at me. They whisper something that I wish I could make out. They chuckle to themselves. Then exactly what I didn't want to happen happened. They all walked towards me. I turned around to run away, but my feet wouldn't let me. So I just stood there and waited.
How... no one has ever made me panic. I'm not panicking about anything. I'm just sweating from my palms, heart beating fast, head pounding, that's it. Then he shows up in front of me. All that just because he came towards me. He looks at me and smiles, "Do I look that good?" He waits for a answer, I scoff. "Jongsuk-How do you want me to answer that?" He shrugs, "Maybe-" he moves in closely "Yes?" I shrug his action off. "Sure." His friends laugh to themselves. "These are the guys we're gonna hang out with." I nod "The names?" They all look at me confusingly, "You're guys' names?" I say looking at them as if they were 3 year olds trying to answer what 2+3 is, "I'm Kangjoon...Seo Kangjoon."Me being the short thing I am he looks down on me. I can tell he's hesitating, I can relate...he definitely has trust issues. "My name is Ji Bin!" His smile, it's genuine. I return the smile warmly. "My names Kim Ji soo." He's really good looking. I turn my head, looking at the remaining member. I search his face for an answere, "His name is Hyung Sik." I nod, "Bitter Queen." I look at Jongsuk confused "What?" He chuckles, "Hyung Sik...also known as 'The Bitter Queen!'" I laugh to myself, "So I'm really hanging out with you guys?" Jongsuk nods, "And they are ok with that?" I point the guys beside him. They nod, Hyung Sik speaks up, "If we are inviting this baby let's go." He sounds so cold, it's refreshing. Everyone is always putting on the face of being happy, it makes me mad, angry. He doesn't. It's like he pushes the fake ness away. He begins to walk away, I procrastinate on wether I should take steps towards the mini group following him, or if I should continue to linger behind. He stops, they do to. It's crazy, it's as if he the big boss holding the remote to control all the robots working for him. They obey and watch every single one of his moves. They keep worry in their eyes, and they easily cover it with happiness, "What's wrong Hyung Sik?" Kang Joon says. "Her." He says without looking back. "She's not walking with us." How does he- "We'll lose her." The boys agree quickly and try and make me join the little robot line they have. I panic walking more back as they all get grabby with their hands grabbing at every edge of my body trying to get me to stand beside them "Stop Being Like A Baby And Cooperate!!!" Ji Soo says yanking at my arm. My head begins to hurt from all the fighting back, I give up. I end up in the front right next to, Hyung Sik. It's amazing how I didn't sign up for this. We walk, and walk. It's silent, it's awkward. I think I know how I can bring up the mood, having no thought I attempt to start a conversation, opening my mouth to talk the words get stuck in my throat. As if I was being suffocated my words drown in my throat closing my mouth quickly I take a deep breath. "What's wrong?" Getting pushed out of my thoughts to listen to him I hum "What?" He looks down at me "Whats wrong?" Silence filled the air again the words come out of my mouth slowly, "I...I don't know.. to be completely honest...I have never felt like this before..."
