I still think about you at night
And when I post things
I always hope there is some slim chance
You will see them
There is only one connection between us now
A life line connecting me to you
I'm not sure if your anxiety
Got the best of you
Or if it was all a lie
But all I know is that you were so nervous
Your body wouldn't stop shaking next to mine
I and my friends
Make jokes of you
But I think the anxiety haunting your
And your mothers mind
Kept you away from me
Any mistake you made
To you looked like a disaster
Too many thoughts in your head
Telling you we couldn't make it
I didn't know how to calm it down
The blind leading the blind
Maybe that's why you used drugs to slow your thoughts
And all this is the reason
I still cannot let you go
Because I have a feeling deep in my bones
You always loved me
But were too scared and anxious
So you threw it away
While your horrible thoughts ran around in your head
I wish I didn't have such a good alibi for you
Because it would be so much easier for me to hate you
And rip you apart
But I can't
I just can't
Even if I make fun of you
And the things you said
I can't
Let
You
Go
YOU ARE READING
The Last Goodbye
Poetry•••Nicotine••• I wish you would've chosen me Over the nicotine And the alcohol The motor oil Running through you're veins I gave you a buzz But I wasn't a can I was a high You could never get back if I left Everything in your life was replac...
