Thoughts

Life

This is what I think life is,Life isn't really that important. We all go outside,have fun,kill others but it doesn't matter in the end. We are all going to die sooner or later. I wonder if I kill myself like falling off a building or stabbing myself. Any way I die,how will my friends,family,or people at school react when i'm dead? Will people cry,blame their self,or don't even care and move on.This is a question I ask myself everyday.People work for years and years and retire at like 60 or more.At that point your too old to do anything,we all might hang out and have fun with our "friends" but to be honest what is a friend? What does friends mean to you? How many friends are you willing to "save" or "abandon"? When a friend hurt your feelings or make you angry,do you still consider them your friend? Some people have friends that you can trust,comfort you,hangout out with you,or love you. Do you have a friend or friends like that all in one. For me I have Matthew,without him I don't know who I will be, what choices I make,or What i'm doing until now. I really appreciate Matthew as my friend and I love him for that(no homo). When my other friends bring me down I got Matthew to fall back on. Others might have family members or characters from shows to help you. But in the end every single living being,planet,universe,everything will be gone. We all live in a place which is a time bomb waiting to explode. When we die will we be reincarnated? We don't even know if there is a heaven or hell.We won't know for sure until we go there. Even if there is how do others know,the dead can't talk to us and that's the truth, when we die we might only see darkness. So before we that happens we make dreams and goals. We achieve them for our personal satisfaction,so you can say "I died happy" but death is never happy. My dream is to become a famous youtuber but that might not happen.There are some goals that are unacheivable or you will have to be lucky. Their are careers that are for maintaining this ball of molten rock we call "our planet". But no matter what we do the earth will blow up and so will other planets,the sun wont last for long neither will we. People get sad when random people die."Oh my baby did nothing wrong he's/she's innocent"."My child will never do that".We all know that's a lie,we all did something wrong in our life. Whether it's killing others,bullying, and etc.We say these things so we won't face the horrible truth. When I was young I beat up this kid for no reason.I took his paper,I was in the wrong.,I regretted it for the rest of my life,now karma is catching up and it will only get worse from there. Some people already said its fate that they will meet their significant other or its fate that they'll fail in life. The only one who can decide that is you,only you can change that. All people are scared of something. I'm scared of losing my friends and family and being all alone.Remember anything you have can vanish faster than a blink of an eye. Some people have phobias but its not going to matter when your already going to die.So enjoy life even if its pathetic but remember that once your dead you cant come back.Your going to regret it,treat everyday like your last or not.It depends on you,you have 1 life so don't waste it.

Chapter 2 of my thoughts might come soon or not.It depends on what I think about. This is not something I made up this is really me and what I think about.