Are We Something More?

Chapter Three;-

* the next day*
I woke up, as my eyes slowly opened, they felt heavy, I could feel the sting and puffiness from all the crying I had done.. then suddenly all the flashbacks of last nights events hit me.
Oh god, why am I like this I thought to myself.
Then I began to think of every time I've done something so similar to Jack, but never had I done it face to face before. Straight away I felt so ashamed and embarrassed. I definitely did not have the balls to face Jack any time soon. So I quickly grabbed my phone off the bedside cabinet and began to text him.

ELLIE: I'm so so sorry about last night Jack :(

Almost instantly I got a reply back, as if he also had my text chat open at the same time.

JACK: Ellie, it's fine, but you need to stop this, it's happening every time you drink, and I'm getting worried about you.

ELLIE: Yes and I'm sorry Jack.. what do you mean worried about me.

JACK: Are you taking your medication ell?

My heart literally jumped in my mouth at the thought of my medication. Jack was right, I hadn't been, and I hadn't done for months, but how did he guess so easily that I hadn't? I didn't want to tell jack I hadn't been taking my medication because I knew he would go mad at me, so I locked my phone and just shoved it under my pillow. Why do I always seem to think avoiding the problem will solve the problem?
I sat up in bed and tucked my knees under my chin with the duvet wrapped around me, I couldn't get the mess off last night out my head.

Within a few minutes of my dazing into mid air I was interrupted by the bedroom door slowly opening. When I looked over and saw jack popping in with a coffee in his hands my face went bright red. I didn't even want to look at him through embarrassment. My eyes quickly diverted straight to the floor in order to avoid eye contact.

'Ell, where's your tablets?' Jack questions as he put the cup of coffee down on the unit beside the bed.

Once again my brain decide to avoid the situation and I just completely ignored jack, my eyes were darting all over the place trying to find something to fixate on to stop me looking over at Jack.

'Ellie, I'm not joking with you. Where are your tablets' jack snapped, as if he was telling off a child.

'I've took them' I said in a blunt, yet calm voice.

'Don't lie to me Ellie, I know you, I know the way you're acting is a indication that you haven't been taking them. You wouldn't have acted the way you did last night if you had been' Jack come and sat next to me on the bed.

'I'm just worried about you ell' he continued.

'Yeah well you've got nothing to worry about, you focus on you and how you want to live your life Jack, because I'm fine just how I am and I don't need to shitty medication to ensure that' my voice was beginning to get snappier and snappier yet I still couldn't look jack in the face.

'Ellie, when you're having one of your meltdowns as often as you are that indicates to me that you're not taking your medication so just fückīng tell me where they are so I can watch you take it' Jacks voice got stern, very stern, I almost felt intimidated.

'They're in my handbag' I said quietly as a tear rolled down my face.

Jack quickly got up and went over to my handbag and grabbed out the sertraline, he looked up as he popped one out the packaging and noticed me wiping a few stray tears of my face.

'Ellie I don't wanna make you cry, I just want you to get better, before it gets too bad like last time' jack said whilst walking over and grabbing my coffee.

'I just don't like taking them jack. I feel empty when I take them. I'm not me when I take them. What's the point of being here if you can't even feel natural human emotions' the tears began to fall down my face uncontrollably.

'I can't love, I can't cry, I can't feel anything jack' I continued.

Jack passed me the coffee and the medication and wrapped his arm around my shoulder whiles sitting down next to me.

'Ell, I know you hate the way they make you feel, but the way you feel when you don't take them is worse. You start hurting yourself and that fückīng devastates me to see, I just want you to be okay again' as jack finished his sentence he lightly placed a kiss on my cheek.

'How about I treat you to breakfast today yeah?' Jack said smiling at me.

'Yeah id like that, I'll get myself read now' I said finally looking him in the eyes after all this time.

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Hey guys, hope you enjoy this one, it isn't a great deal but I've been super busy and it's like 1am and I'm exhausted but I wanted to get a new chapter up.

So Ellie suffers mental health, something which I hold very close to my heart which is why I wanted to involve this as a storyline. I hope you're enjoying the book so far, I know there isn't much just yet but I promise I will try my best to make it a book you want to read, and book you can't wait to see the next chapter off.
Please leave me comments letting me know how the book is for you, if there is anything I could improve on etc.