Supportive//Fack

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Finn's POV

"Finn?" I heard my mother knock on the door.

"Yeah?" I sniffle as the last of my tears roll down my cheeks.

"Are you ok hunny." She asks quietly.

Nothing's ok mom, that's all I want to say.

"Yeah I-I'll be fine, I just wasn't feeling good." I lie.

"Is that why you're crying?" She says still with a quiet voice.

"Y-yeah, I um, through up in the bathroom and i don't know I just kind of broke down." I lie again.

You're a liar, I scold myself, You lie to everyone, your mother, your friends, yourself.

"Do you need anything? Do you want me to make you some tea?" She asks.

"N-no I think I just need to rest mum." I say forcing a smile even though she can't see me.

"Ok hun, um good night." My mother says.

"Good night." I say quietly and then I hear the sound of her foot steps fade as she walks down the hallway and back down stairs.

I get up and sit on my bed.

I look around and then I look down at my hands.

I put my hands together and look up.

"Hey um Nick.....," I begin. " I don't know if you're listening but I just want to tell you I-I miss you. And I'm kind of going through some stuff and I really wish you were still here with me! Because i really really need you...." I bite my lip to hold back the new tears that have formed.

"But I know you're still here for me, not physically but spiritually I guess. Just know I love you." Finn smiles to himself.

Suddenly his phone rings, it's Millie.

I pick up my phone but I'm hesitate to answer.

Once I do answer I put the phone to my ear "H-hello...."

"Hey Finn, you ok?" Millie says.

"Y-yeah, I'm better." I say.

"We're just about to leave everyone is either tired and just eating or drunk so we're gonna go." Millie says.

     I hear a faint voice in the background say "Is that Finn?"

      "Yeah," Millie says back quietly.

      "Who's that?" I ask. She pauses.

        "Jack...." she says. My heart flutters with the thought of him but then I suddenly feel this uncomfortable sensation.

       "So yeah we're going home now." She says. I don't respond I just nod even though she can't see me.

        "Oh um Finn we're going back to Sophia's place. Want to come?" I sit there for a moment. I can't say no. But I don't want say yes....

No Millie I don't want to. I can't.

"Um....sure."

Why did I say that? Why?

"Ok, you don't have to." Millie says, I nod.

"It's fine I'll come for an hour."

"Ok,it will just be the four of us. Is that fine?" Millie says sweetly.