"Are you sure you're ready for this?" I say to Lukas especially because this is a little early in our "relationship"
"Why wouldn't I be?" I only say this because there is a possibility that we can break up and my mom would be almost as upset that I would be. maybe even more and she's a really emotional person and this is all a surprise to her like, she does even know that Lukas Waldenbeck exsists.
"Well if you're sure lets go." I say putting my key in the door opening it. I open the door to see my mom laughing at some tv show she's like obsessed with. She looks up and instantly smiles when she sees me but I know there's some confusion when she sees Lukas standing there next to me.
"hi sweetie. Who's your friend?" she says moving over to us giving us both hugs. lukas is stunned from the hug and lets out a little , chuckle.
"mom, this is Lukas."
"hi, lukas. it's nice to meet you. come sit down." she says pulling us over to the table in the kitchen. okay, our apartment is tiny and I bet lukas wasn't expecting that. it kind of makes me wonder if i'm not good enough because I know Lukas must have a big house with a lot of land and plenty of animals and i'm in this run down apartment building and living in an apartment barely big enough for two people. that will always be an insecurity of mine but I won't dare say anything. well
maybe.
"so how do you two know eachother."
we don't really know that much about each other.
"we didn't really until recently. Lukas here.. he um.. asked me to homecoming." I say putting my head down waiting for my mom to shriek with excitement.
"Philip, really! Why didn't you tell me?"
my mom. she's amazing but change doesn't really come easy to her and I know she'd be happy for me regardless but, I don't know if this thing with Lukas is going to get serious or not and if we break up my mom's gonna flip and be all sad so I just didn't know
"I just.. I don't know if it'll get serious or not and yea." I say glancing at Lukas very briefly.
he has to know that's the only reason why i'm holding back a bit. but how would I know if it's serious or not in this short period of time. I mean, who would know.
"i'm looking for something serious. I've always seen Phillip around and I just... never had the confidence to speak up I guess. it's way harder when you're the talk of the school and everyone thinks you're and asshole."
I get that because all of my friends dislike Lukas because of how he's perceived by the whole school and no one really knows the real him.
"all of my friends really don't want to give Lukas a chance but they don't really know him. I was willing to give him a chance because you can't really judge someone without knowing him."
my mom is just nodding and listening and I know it's really quick for him to meet my mom and because he met my mom, she is going to get emotionally invested in us so if this goes to shit there's no coming back for Lukas.
"so what are your parents like Lukas?" my mom asks and I know she's excited to meet them but I really wanna know this too because we've never got this far, Lukas and I.
"well, my mom is a nurse. my mom is very very accepting and very welcoming and understanding. I can tell her anything and I know she'd never judge me or look at me sideways."
"just like you, mom." I say smiling at her. she smiles and mutters a quiet I try giving me a little kiss on my cheek.
"my dad on the other hand is exactly the opposite of my mom. my dad doesn't really know about me you know liking guys but my mom does. my mom is just wanting for me to tell my dad but there's no way i'd actually tell him. he always wants to know why I never date anyone or have any girl friends. but having a girl that's a friend always turns out horrible so I try and keep those to a minimum."
"so your dad has no idea about you?" my mom asks him totally invested in his situation.
Lukas shakes his head and looks down a little. "as far as he knows im this perfect little straight farm boy."
"when are you planning on telling him?" my mom says to him
he looks at me and smiles and I think this is where I come in.
"well, I was sort of planning on telling him at homecoming. my mom will 100% want us to take lots of pictures and my dad will be there so he'll find out then."
"that's amazing sweetie, maybe I could swing by your place when you guys go too because I wanna take a million pictures too. and hopefully I can talk to him about it since we're in the exact same boat."
Anne Motherfuckin' saint Shea.
"you're so amazing, mom." I say giving her a small hug.
"would you really?"
"i'd love to sweetie, i'll be there the entire day with you guys if you need me to."
I love my mom.
