Because I'm Stupid (Demercibal Series #1)

Chapter 04

Chapter 04

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After he kissed me. He left me with a shock expression and like there's nothing happening. I even touched my lips when his shadow was gone. I don't know but I felt something in my heart that kept on saying that I want more.

I'm just looking at the table while snapping my fingers. Nakatulala at tila iniisip pa rin ang halik na ginawad niya kanina sa akin at ang sinabi niyang namimiss niya ako.

I want to laugh. Gusto kong tawanan ang pagiging playboy niya. Gusto kong sabihin na hindi niya na ako madadaan sa mga mabulaklak niyang salita.

I'm not an old Ives anymore. I've changed a lot.

I heard footsteps near me. I didn't bother to look at him. Hindi ko pa rin nakakalimutan ang ginawa niyang paghalik sa akin. For me, It's a big deal! Though, that wasn't our first kiss. Nung kami pa ay mas maraming beses niya na akong nahalikan but now is far different from our past.

"Sierra, which one do you prefer? Coffee, milk or tea? I'll make one for you."

He shows me each box of the brand of the drinks he has mentioned. I'm craving chocolate milk but it's hard for me to tell him. He might think, I still love him.

"No thanks, I'm not hungry." malamig kong tugon.

Nicholas is always watching my moves, whenever or wherever I go. I secretly caressed my tummy. I'm so hungry. Kanina pa ako walang kain kaya madali akong tinamaan ng alak kanina.

It's already midnight but we're still wide awake. I still remember when we were still in a relationship, we always cuddled, movie marathons, ate and sometimes we talked about our future at midnight.

He sat down in front of me. Our eyes met but I tilted my head the other way. I can sense his gaze at me even if I'm not looking at him.

"Is that a big deal for you? We did it for how many times. What's new? I just missed your lips. Is it a bad thing?"

His mouth has no filter. He doesn't know when or where he needs to stop from talking too much. He's being vulgar to his words and it makes me uncomfortable.

I grinned my teeth. "Siraulo ka rin 'no? How many times do I need to tell you that we're already fucking done. You can't just kiss me like that! What if may boyfriend pala ako?!"

His gaze is like a knife that stabbed me. Matalim ang kaniyang tingin sa akin habang yumukom ang kaniyang kamao. I won't deny that his hands scare me.

I know Nicholas too much, pero kahit kailan kahit galit ito hindi niya ako sinaktan. Instead, he will kiss my forehead before turning around. Kinabukasan non ay magiging maayos na. Siya pa mismo ang magso-sorry.

"Don't you dare say that again, Sierra." malamig niyang sambit, "I know you don't have. You don't have a boyfriend... no, I won't let you have it again."

I gritted my teeth. "Why so selfish? Sinabi ko na sa'yo, wala ka ng pakialam sa gusto kong gawin. You aren't mine anymore. Magbo-boyfriend ako sa ayaw at sa gusto ko!"

"Then be mine again. You're not allowed to have a boyfriend unless it's me!"

I stopped, "Do you really enjoy playing with me?" my voice is in a bitter sound.

His wary eyes and cold look slowly fading away. But I still sense his anger through his moves.

"T-That's not what I mean-"

"Then what?!"

"The man with you a while ago, is that your boyfriend?" medyo galit niyang tanong.

He's calm. He's relaxed, and he's serious. I'm more scared when he's too serious about something. I know he's just calm but inside his head, he wants to kill someone. I'm very aware of his attitude and personality.