Why does anyone put up with me..?
I'm rude, insensitive, and I don't care about anything...
I have a wonderful wife who loves me, awesome friends..Shouldn't I be happy?? That I have this blessing?
So much for getting better, right?
Sometimes..I wake up and wonder why I do. I feel so selfish because I want to die, and I know that it would affect everyone here.
Heh..Just talking to people on the bus triggers things that I want to go away.
My skin itches at the thought of a blade or broken glass. I want so badly to just..etch lines into my skin, to satisfy these urges. But, I jab myself with a safety pin, and it gets better. Kinda..
I gag whenever I eat, because it doesn't feel right. I want to throw up even eating just some toast or a bowl of cereal.
Fear is a natural thing for me.
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РазноеOkay, so everyone who will read this (and those who won't) this is my backup account bc I forgot my pw, and I don't remember the bame of the last art book! So I'm just gonna put some random shiz in here and hope my artz don't suck
