I sat on the bottom of the stairs waiting for HIM to come home I knew he was going to come back trying to apologize but I'm over his apologizes he always does this to me I'm not even mad I'm over that all the pictures and mirror' s in the mansion are broken
And all of my stuff is packed, the stuff I bought all of the expensive coats, dresses, bags and jewelry he had got me sit neatly in a pile in His room except for the engagement ring I couldn't bear to take it off
Just as I was about to get my bag from upstairs to leave this hell hole of a house HE comes through the door the suppoevly love of my life, Nicholas Alexander Simmons with his dreds covering his face but I could still see his eyes red redder than Satan himself he's high great I just want to leave and never come back
"Wassup mamas" he says how is he going to just say hey like everything's alright, it isn't he's cheating on me with that bitch lulu but I can't help but, feel some type of way when he calls me mamas "you straight" he asks as he gets closer to the stairs where I'm seated with a small suitcase in my hand I don't reply as I'm struggling not to break down again for the forth time tonight
"Why you got a suitcase in yo hand and why you crying" how is he acting like he wasn't just laying up with fufu a hour ago I wouldn't have even knew about this if it wasn't for cordae who had sent pictures
"Don't tell me you tryna leave me again Is it because I didn't answer your call cause I was with Manny" he said how is he just going to lie to my face like that it makes me wonder how many times he's lied to me "you don't have to lie to me I know who you were with" I said as I finally got the nerve to speak
He put his head down proably knowing he isn't going to be able to lie his way out of this one "you don't even got to lie I got all of my stuff packed up and I left all the stuff you bought me upstairs I just want one thing from you though" his head slowly rose up to reveal the saddest look on his face he sits down next to me on the stairs and looks me dead in my eyes "I'm sorry" he says "but baby please don't leave me I'll get you whatever you want a new bag, shoes anything you want I'll eat you out anything" he pleaded with me "I just want to know why you keep going back to her what does she have that I don't" i said at this point I was sobbing I got up and ran upstairs I didn't want him to see me cry
I gathered my bags and made my way downstairs he was still in the same place at the bottom of the stairs I made my way downstairs plast Nick and to the door but before I could open it he gets in front of the door preventing me from leaving "you can't leave me" he says with a tear falling down his eye "Nicholas move" I say "I can't let you leave me I won't let you"
"Why are you doing this to me" I yell out as I try to get his hands from around the knob to open the door
"I don't know" he yells and pushes me from the door he has to know maybe it's my fault im I ugly to him I've never seen him talk to any girl that wasn't Latina or Hispanic " im sorry if my skin isnt light enough or if my hair isnt straight are if Im fat and have streatch marks like hers"
"Im sorry I dont cook for you everyday im sorry for being a horribile girlfriend" i say in tears he wipes my tears and kisses my foreheadd "your purfect I love you just the way you are she dosent have anything on you" he says
"Then why do you keep talking to her why do you keep hurting me" i say he looked at me again as tears kept falling out of both of our eyes he hugged me tight while he cried, he smelled like weed and his expensive gucci cologne a smell ive come to love
Still capturing me in his warm tight embrace he finally spoke up from a scilence that seened to last forever
"Im tired of hurting you you shouldnt be he hurting because of me i love you i couldnt live without you im sorry just bring the bags upstairs and come to sleep in our bed"
"No you dont love me just let me go" i say as i try to break free from the hug, but he wont let me go he keeps holding onto me and telling me he loves me "if i didnt love you i wouldnt have been crying for the past hour and you wouldnt have that ring on your finger just come upstairs please"
I looked him in his wattery eyes ive never seen him cry before he looked horrible he wasnt high he had been crying too
So this is half of one of the chapters of the new ybn book i just posted the cast list for and this book should have a update for it soon
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