Ugly Duckling: No One Wants Me [Completed]

Chapter 13

It's Monday, time to leave. The funeral went really well. Yesterday I helped with the blankets. Don't know why we should wash blankets the day after the funeral. I say goodbye to Njabulo and his family with the promise to tell them when I get home. Before getting in the car the whole family hugs me including Joyce's in-laws. I needed to talk with Njabulo alone but I can't tell his parents that. I leave at 10 am and I get to the apartment 7 hours later, tired as hell. I'll go home tomorrow night.

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I leave the apartment at 7pm hoping the meeting is over, they told me to get home a week ago. But when I get home, I see so many cars. Is there a party and I wasn't invited hahaha as if I'd come. I walk in and judging by the looks on their faces there's something wrong here. Nobuhle's in-laws are the funniest people ever I didn't know they knew how to be serious. Imagine going home hoping to relax but no the family decides to drop a bomb on me.

Eeh banna I can't believe my ears, Richard is divorcing Nobuhle and my family blames me because Richard says he sometimes wishes she was educated and independent like me, I mean what is wrong with that. Am I not supposed to be praised for studying my butt off and wanting to work hard for everything I want and have? My parents will hate me worse so I just stay throughout the meeting even though I know I'm not wanted but they were busy calling me. Can't believe they summoned me home because Richard praised me.

I miss Njabulo but I'll have to wait I hate it when people are busy on their phone while they are not alone. My phone vibrates on my pocket, I know it's a whatsapp text it must be Bobo because

Njabulo doesn’t have whatsapp and he HATES it.

Bobo: Hey biatch. I haven't heard from you in a very long time. I miss you. My hubby says hi.

Okay I don't get why people call each other bitch and seems okay. I'm just offended. I also find it strange when someone uses the word fuck like it's a normal thing, but maybe it is. I know Bobo means well.

Me: Can't talk righ now, I'm in a family meeting. I will call you as soon as I can.

I'm busy day dreaming, I don't see Nobuhle jumping at Richard cause he's been watching me the whole time. Both families turn towards me with suspicious looks. Oh no they don't think Richard and I are having an affair right? But before I can even ask what's up Nobuhle slaps me so hard I see stars. I'm just too shocked to react. I don't know what I have ever done to my parents and sisters I don't deserve how they treat me. Once I recover I take my bag and leave cause if I stay. It won't end well.

"Where do you think you're going little girl" that's my mom. I don't answer her I just walk towards the car.

Paaaah another slap, I unlock the car get in and drive off. I've had enough. I will stop supporting them until I get an apology plus Nobuhle will be back home. She won’t have a place to stay since she's unemployed. I'm so mad, I'm even crying, never been so mad in my life. This is too much.

I get to the apartment, switch my phone off then I go straight to bed. I wake up the next day, switch on my phone. There are about 7 voice messages and 56 texts, from my family, Njabulo and Bobo. I don't feel like talking to anyone, so I switch it off take a bath and go straight to bed. I wake up 5 hours later with a grumbling stomach. There's a loud knock on the door, I'm going to pretend I’m not home. So I just make the bed and walk to the lounge. I'm too tired to talk or do anything. I'm too lazy to even eat and that has never happened before. Whoever was banging on my door has stopped so I decide to listen to music. I switch on the phone there are new 5 texts and 3 missed calls from Njabulo. I don't want to talk to anyone not even him for the first time ever. When I'm about to switch the phone off he calls. Let me just pick up so he knows I'm okay and he'll stop annoying me.

"Hello" I answer.

"My God, maZwide are you okay?" he asks me sounding relieved. "I'm okay" "You don't sound okay. What's up?" he asks worried.

"I said I'm okay. What do you want Njabulo?" I ask feeling irritated now. I don't have time for this.

"Haw Mbali, I'm just worried about you" I know it's not fair but if my own family doesn't care about me then why would other people care. I mean I've known Njabulo, Melusi and Bobo for less than a year, they might be pretending. If my own blood hates me so much, why do they care? It doesn't make sense I don't think I can do this.

"Njabulo, I can't do this. Whatever we have going on needs to stop, we need to cut ties. It was nice knowing you" I tell him and hang up. I'll miss him but like they say time heals I hope it does. He calls me and stops after 5 missed calls. Just when I start to relax Bobo calls so I need to cut ties with them. I'm too tired to talk but let me just do it now.

"Hello" I answer.

"What's up. Njabulo just called. I thought you were okay? Why did..." he doesn't even get to finish the sentence. I disturb him.

"Bobo I'm sorry I can't do this. I need to cut ties with you guys. It's for the best" I tell him and hang up. I switch off my phone because I know they will call. I call in one of the guards and ask them not to let anyone in. Not even my parents he nods and leave. I don't have enough food, but I'll make a plan.

I decide to go to sleep. I fall asleep as soon as my head hits the pillow. I wake the next day. I don't know whether to switch my phone off or not. I really want to see if Njabulo tried to contact me but then I'm scared what if he didn't. I need to change my number. I call one of the guards and ask him to buy some groceries for me. He agrees I give him the list and money. Varsity opens in 3 weeks, I don't need to go out before then. An hour later the guy whom I don't even know his name comes back with everything on the list. I thank him and give R500 to say thanks. Oh I just remembered I need to cancel the debit order for the DSTV at home plus the money I send my parents every month. I can't be supporting them when they always make feel small and not good enough.

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For the 3 weeks I don't leave the apartment, but I need to go to campus, I'm scared I might bump into Njabulo or Bobo even though they live a little far from here. I changed my digits so we don't communicate. I lost so much weight but I'll have to be strong. I ran out of food. I decide to go out, I'll need to go out at some point. So I get into the car and leave. I buy food as quickly as I can so that I don't bump to anyone. I'm relieved when I get into the car and I haven't bumped to anyone. I miss Njabulo so much it hurts, but I need to be strong, it's not the end of the world. I just think

I'm not meant to be happy. At the robots I see Bobo and Mel in their car on my right, they just ignore me. I know I cut ties with them but it hurts. I roll down the window, the robot is red.

"Hey guys" I greet them with a smile, really happy to see them. They just nod and continue with their conversation. This is really my fault hey, but it hurts so much. When the robot turns green they drive off like nothing happened. I messed up, I'll go home and sleep like I've been doing for the past 3 weeks.