Littlemissshyness's Blog

November 20, 2018

Climax of my Senior high school year

I got depressed. I'm currently in the state of finding myself and also finding my happiness. Everything for me doesn't make sense anymore. I feel that everything is not going to work very well. Pains and struggles really hit me so hard that i could even heal it by myself.

I am trying to focus my priorities and i am trying to take back my old personality but as long as i am trying, i am also crying.

Everyday, Every night, Every Morning, afternoon i always cried.

I have so many thoughts in my mind and i feel that i can no longer handle it and sooner or later it will burst.

Being the achiever before and a great person, expectations to you from your surroundings really hurt you the most. Even though you tried your best if you don't achieve their expectations they will get disappointed.

Have you ever put all your efforts on a particular thing but all of those became worthless when the time that you don't succeed.

But i am actually thankful for the persons who enter my life and try to make me something new. I really appreciate those people who love me as i am.

But right know i am actually hurt. Why? Coz i feel that tgose persons who care and loved me before are no longer doing the same thing for me now. It feels like they no longer need me and i am just a worthless thing. This is why i hate trusting people. After they have your heart and you already gave your trust to them they will eventually left you behind. Mga paasa.

After the girl have been attached to someone boys will eventually leave and that is the worst and hurtful part of trusting someone.

I hate the word trust.

Trusting made me change into a soft hearted person who always cry and afraid of everything. I can't no longer trust anyone because i experience being abandoned by them and that is the worst part of being inlove with someone, trusting them but they will leave you after they have your trusts.