Best Friends || J-Hope x Reader

4. The letter

„Because I have something really important to tell you, Y/N.."

I shrugged and I could feel my heart beating faster.

Oh my God, what is he going to tell me..?

„Today was probably the last day I could spend with you... and I actually didn't ditch practice... I left the group..."

I was shook.
„What?? Why?? What do you mean by that??", I asked him.

„Y/N.... I'll be moving..."

„You're... what...?"

„I'm moving.. today is my last day here in Gwangju.."

I could feel my heart breaking into a thousand of pieces and it was hard for me not to start to cry.

„H-Hobi... you're kidding right..??", I asked him, hoping he was just joking.

Hobi didn't say anything for a moment.

„Right....???", I asked again.

„I'm sorry Y/N...", Hobi apologized and looked like he was going to cry.

For a moment, there was just silence.

„Is there a reason why you're moving..?", I asked after a while.

„My Dad got a new job... but unfortunately It's in Seoul.. so..", Hobi explained.

"Why didn't you tell me earlier??", I asked him.

"I couldn't... I didn't want to hurt you..but I just can't leave without telling you..", he looked down.

"You can live at my place! We still have one room left!!", I suggested

"I'm so sorry Y/N... but.. I have to go.... there's no way back..", Hobi tried to smile.

I hold back my tears. I didn't want Hobi to feel bad.

"Why don't we pay and go home? It's late..", Hobi said.

I just nodded.

We paid our ice cream and left. It was already dark outside.

Hobi walked me home, I actually always felt good when he was doing that, because it makes me feel safe. But knowing that this will be the last time he'll walk me home just hurts me. I didn't want him to leave me. I want him to stay with me, I want to continue spending my time with him, I want to see his beautiful smile everyday and I want to spend the rest of my life with him. But now... everything is falling apart.

„Are you alright Y/N?", I heard Hobi asking.

No, I'm not.

„Yeah... I think I just... need some time to process all of that..", I answered.

Why can't I just tell him. What if he stays with me when I tell him? Ugh what am I thinking, he doesn't love me back.. I'm just his best friend. Nothing else..

„You know, It really hurts me too. I don't want to leave Gwangju. And I especially don't want to leave you. When I could, I would take you with me", Hobi said while we were still walking.

I looked at him.

Did he really just say that?

„Because It would be boring without my best friend. I'll have no one to tease", Hobi laughed.

„Hey!!", I shouted and playfully hit his arm.
I started laughing too.

But as we arrived in front of my home, I began to feel sad again.