rant book

one.

Do you guys find it funny to laugh and say

"Relatable"
And
"Same"
And all that stupid shit when people pour their hearts out to you.  You leave them to bleed there.  And you leave them till their numb.

And people have the nerve to fucking say
"Attention whore"
"Kys"
"Stop joking around this topic isn't funny"

Cause.  Those people
They really know how to break you don't they?  Do you know how many people feel like this and cry their heart out every single fucking night.

And those people who actually are seeking attention.

They pretend to be depressed.
They decide to "mock"
People who actually are depressed.

And they put memes. They say memes.  Here.  In these types of posts  and they laugh about it. And it isn't funny.
No not at all.

Sometimes I wish I could just go numb and stop feeling things.

My stomach hurts.
I'm feeling like shit. Mentally and physically. 

And people will say to me.
They'll say stuff like
"K"
And they'll leave me there.  After I wrote a paragraph.

Sure!  Yeah!  I can be annoying sometimes.

And sure! 
I might just be annoying all the time.
But don't just leave me here.
To bleed out.  After I tried.

I tried
And
I tried
To make you feel better when you were sad. And I felt like I couldn't do anything.

I felt useless. 
And stupid.
And all that crap.

Because I couldn't help.

And people leave me there for someone else.  Who said one thing and 'cheered them up'

I'm sorry that I'm ranting.  But.

I felt like I needed to.
And this book will be here for that.
And exactly that.

I might post these daily.

Who knows..