Undertaker's Daughter!? (A Little Bit Of Lemon)

The Truth Part 1 (UT's pov)

      After breakfast me and Lucy started having a small conversation. During the conversation she mentioned that her birthday is tomorrow and said that she's never went out for her birthday. Titty osity took over me and I started asking questions about it.
"Why is that?"
"Well..." She was silent for a minute, "...we didn't have much money and after my mother got sick I used the money I earned to help her."
"Oh, I'm sorry." I felt bad for bringing it up.
"Don't be," she smiled her small, broken smile, "All I could ask for is to have a mother that cared as much as she did." Her voice was stiff as if she was lying.
"Alright," I said before mumbling under my breath, "I wish I had someone like that when I was your age..."
"What do you mean by that," she sat next to me looking concerned.
"Nothing don't worry about it" I said blankly
"Well, I'm already worried!" She yelled.
I sighed, "When I was a human, I lost my mother at age 4 to cancer..."
She frowned, "I'm sorry"
"Eh...I didn't really know her as a mother but at least she cared..."
Lucy was silent for a minute and lean into me, "What about your Dad."
Anger poured over me, "He blamed me for my mother's death...he acted like my brother was perfect..." I clenched my teeth, "...he was no father of mine..."
She clung to me looking afraid.

      I calmed down outside for a bit before walking inside "I'm sorry...you didn't need to hear that" I said. Kirari had walked upstairs around this time to clean and organize the bedrooms.
"It's alright," Lucy stood up and looked at my bangs, "Why do you cover your eyes?" She asked curiously.
      "I grew bangs in collage. I guess I just didn't wanna worry my friend, so I kept the bags under my eyes a secret. Some of my good friends saw past it, especially when it started failing classes and ended up quitting all together." I looked down.
"What happened?" She looked a bit worried and concerned
      "My older brother enrolled in the same collage as me with some of his highschool friends. He kept me away from family and friends with threats and bullying. Soon I started drinking, hopping the pain would go away, that probably why I started failing classes."
Lucy stiffened hearing that, "Mamma told m-me things...a-about you...things that sc-scared me."
      "Y-Yeah I wasn't the best person after that, I will admit it."
Lucy shivered, "She said you would get into a lot of fights..."
I nodded, ashamed, "...they were... stupid...I know...friends would come hang out with me.....to keep me in check...but when I was alone...I started doing stupid crap..."
"Your not like that anymore ...R-Right?" Lucy asked
I looked at her surprised she even thought that, "No! Of course not! And I plan never to get like that again!" She smiled at the comment
      My mind started to wonder, "W-What else did your mom tell you about what I did when I was drunk?"
"Just over exaggerated fights, that all really," she said quietly
I took a deep breath,"Well that's not all I did..." She looked at me concerned, "I would also, as you know, get into one night stands with random people from the collage...and...carve in the walls of my apartment with the blade of broken scissors...Then I would end up in the hospital with how much my hands and wrists were bleeding...and I did this all because of...stupid...threats" It hurt to say this, my mind was broken. My heart ached with the memories.
"Your brothers a douche. If he's alive, I swear I'm going to stab him!" She eyes flashed a bit as she said that.
      Suddenly a craving ran over me like a river. I couldn't stop it. I started laughing like a maniac. The sensation of the words that ran through my head caused me to go mad, 'What am I doing, why can't I stop!', "I..." My breathing became heavy. I felt the sensation take over me, it hurt. I couldn't stop it. My eyes dilated to an insane look, "I-I killed him! I had my father watch as I slaughtered his precious son!"
My eyes turned back to normal as I look at Lucy who was backing up with a mortified look on his face, "This is why she never let me find you, i-isn't it...?"
Tears lined my eyes, my voice cracked bad, "I-I-I...." Right at this moment Kirari ran downstairs hearing the yelling, "What's going on!?" She asked a bit confused and afraid of what just happened. Lucy curled up in a ball on the floor, shaking constantly. I was terrified of myself, I didn't know what to do, my heart started to race, my breathing becoming even more heavy.
I stood up, "I have to go..." I held my head down.
"What?" Kirari looked at me confused
"I have to go!" I yelled running out the door in a sobbing mess, 'Why did I do that!?'