Bass Rifts: S/mb

Whyyyyy?!

So, today is Thanksgiving, right? Normally we have a nice family thing with turkey and stuffing and pie and what not, but no this year. This year, my grandparents are coming and FORCING us to make Italian food. And that's not even the worst of it. My mom is FORCING me to wear a dress, my hair down, and make up. I hate myself so much like this. Then, we I told her no and to get out of my room, she yelled at me. I walked up to her in my state of pissed off-ness, face to face and starring the beast in the eyes. So, she proceeds to physically grab my arm and try to pull me out of my room. Then she physically pushes me away. 

Now, mother isn't the physical child abuse kind of mom, so that's why this was so weird. I told her to get out again and she mocked my voice (since I'm sick so my voice is scratchy). Now I'm just sitting in the bathroom while crying and bleeding. Why does she have to hate me so much? Why does she have to constantly touch my face and my back and my hair, no matter how many times I tell her I don't like to be touched? Why does she have to dress me like this, no matter how many times I tell her I hate make up and dresses? I'm not even out yet and I know if I come out I won't be accepted. Why does my life have to be like this? ~ Poke