I have nothing to loose

Im sorry

They both looked at me speechless.
BM:" Hyorim..."
Me:" I can't believe you two would lie to me, the only two people I have in this world" I sighed
Jin:" we are so sorry Hyorim"
Me:" Why would you even lie in the first place, do you not trust me. I can't find a better explanation"
BM:" of course we do it's just..." He looked at Jin
Jin:" can you give us some privacy"
BM nodded and stood up and left. I was looking at both of them trying to figure out what's going on.
Jin:" Hyorim... I am so sorry I liked to you"
He stopped talking
Me:" I'm listening"
Jin:" well... I was also in a gang"
My whole world came crashing down
I was speechless I couldn't move I was shook.
Jin:" the same gang BM was in"
I gulped
Me:" w-h-at-t?"
Jin:" I'm sorry I didn't say anything before"
Me:" so you knew him?"
He nodded
Me:" is that why you smiled when you thought we were together? Is this why you two were so weird and awkward around each other?"
He nodded
Tears started falling on my cheeks.
Jin:" Hyorim... Please don't cry"
Me:" I TRUSTED YOU AND YOU LIED TO ME"
Jin:" I'm sorry...babe please"
Me:" no" I said moving away " I am going to take a walk don't follow me"
I left, BM was standing in the hall and I just passed without saying anything. I went out and I had no idea where I was going, I just needed to get away from him.
My feelings where mixed up. I was sad, angry, mad. I was so confused. Why wouldn't he tell me
Was that the only reason he was nice to me? Is that the only reason he cared? Was he playing me?
I was crying like crazy.
As I was walking I ended up in an ally and it was dark. That's never good. I decided to turn around and head back home and face Jin. But a group of men probably in their late 20s stood in front of me.
Guy1:" hey babe what is a beautiful girl like you doing in ally by her self" he said as he touched my cheek. I backed away I shouldn't fight and I should just run away. No more trouble, no more jail.
Guy2:" I wonder what you look like without clothes"
My eyes widened.
Guy3:" let's find out" he approached me and tried to touch my shirt I blocked him and punched him. I am not getting out of this without a fight. The others tried to catch me but I fought them off. I got hurt badly they were strong but drunk so their moves were not calculated very well. After struggling to fight them off for like 7 minutes the police came
The ally isn't that big and anyone passing by can see that there is a fight there so someone must have called the cops. Great.
As soon as the cops started getting out of the car and arresting the guys I passed out.