My unspoken Words

Am Just A Writer

I was never really mesmerized by life never have I loved the damn thing
It seemed so over rated to me and as a writer
I love the pain of death more
Listening to the words that silence speaks is a talent of mine
And the most devastating form of pain which is death makes you wonder if you were meant for something better
And just like that I too wondered what is my purpose
As I was dying inside as i was burying myself I saw him and he made me come to life once again
He made me believe in false hope and he left I was stuck with his identity stuck with his name curved in every shard
Of my heart
I am just a writer and once I write I can not erase even if I do erase I will remember the words I once wrote
And so as I die I won't let my last words be “i love pizza and ice cream ”
Even though all these are great they are
Not you
Before meeting you I had died a thousand times and you came you brought me to life you made me live and now dying doesn't seem as good as it did before
You awakened my dead heart breathed life to my soul and then you left me for another just like he did
You left me in the middle of life and death She gave you everything
Gifts smiles laughter love
But I couldn't give you any of that am just a writer the words I say and write are all I have to offer
I could write your story and mine from start but no I won't because am just a writer
In the end I live on words and on words I will die with a smile