Just Friends

3.

Harry's POV

I looked at Olivia as my heart shattered. I didn't want to hurt her at all but I guess I did more damage than good. I sat next to her on the hood of my car but kept my face turned towards her. I felt horrible to talk to her and I felt my eyes swelter up. My thoughts of worry were interrupted with her soft and cracked voice.

"Explain now." Liv barely managed to get out. She seemed pissed and unhappy with me. Her face and eyebrows crinkled and I could feel the anger in the air. I breathed in uneasy and pinched my nose. I had to get it out, I had to. I cringed and I realized my decision to keep the secret from her was an immature and idiotic idea.

"Stell.. Stella and I have been together for seven months and I'm sor-" I began to say, until Olivia interrupted.

"You.. you lied to me? You kept this a secret for seven months? Harry, I'm your best friend! You didn't even bother to tell me? Are you fucking kidding me? You are not sorry, you are not! You lied to me for seven months and didn't regret anythin-" Liv yelled.

"I did regret it! I regret not telling you! Liv, I'm so so sorry, please."

"No! You are low H, especially for dating her. Why did you keep it from me? Do you know how much this hurts?"

"Its because you don't like her!" I boomed at her. She looked frightened but she continued.

"So if you know I don't like her and I'm uncomfortable with her, why did you go ahead and date her anyway?"

"Becaus-"

"Take me home Harry. I don't want anything to do with your ass anymore."

I nodded and climbed into the car. She stomped around the hood and finally sat in here. I saw her face in the mirror. Her eyes were red like wine and her cheeks puffy. Tears spilled out of her eyes and I finally realized I hurt her. I lost my only best friend over a girl.

I liked Stella. I loved Stella. She means a lot to me and I think Liv needs to realize that. My palms clutched the steering wheel and my face began to boil. Liv was stubborn and selfish. She was so full of herself. My feelings towards her now are so far annoyed and I am so pissed with her. I glanced at her and saw her cheeks wet and saddened face. I softened my tense body and went out to reach her. She jerked away from me and glared me in the eyes.

"Don't fucking touch me." she threw at my face. I moved my hand away and sighed. Maybe I shouldn't have kept dating Stell away from her. I hate that I did that to her and I never realized how much that could have destroy her. I softened my face again and tried to initiate conversation.

"Liv, please. Stell means a lot to me and I wish I told you. Please forgive me." I said as I pulled by her house.

"No. Fuck you Harry. Leave me alone." She slammed the door so hard. She walked away and huffed her breath from the car. I pull up a bit to see her get into the house safely.

"Olivia please!"

"Go fuck yourself!" She screamed as she climbed up the side of the house. She slid open her window and climbed inside. She shut the window and I knew I lost her.

Shit Harry, you're so stupid! I repeatedly hit my steering wheel and puffed in frustration. I felt warm tears stream down my face as I drove towards my house. I hate myself, I hate everything I've done to her. I'm such a dick.

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Olivia's POV

I shredded my clothes off my body and immediately went into my bathroom. I looked at my face in the mirror and thought how disgusting I was. Is this why Harry picked her over me? He is so selfish and so rude. How could he keep this from me? He is so delusional and arrogant! He knew I did not like Stella so why did he even pursue a relationship with her?

I groaned in annoyance so I immediately jumped into the shower. I turned on the water and let the cold water hit me. I felt the rush of the water drip on me as I cried. I hate Harry.

I can't believe I ever liked him. What kind of friend keeps a secret from you for seven months? Don't get me started on the fact that he's dating her. Harry is the epitome of best friends. I hate him and I can't believe him. Did I even matter as a friend to him anymore? My stomach started churning and rolling in circles. I felt like I was going to throw up, but I didn't. I'm just sickly disappointed in him. I let him into my life but told him everything I could. Is this the only thing he's been hiding from me? Or is it more?

As soon as I finished my shower, I quickly gotten dressed. I wore a large t-shirt that probably was Harry's. This probably doesn't help this situation but its the only thing that puts me to sleep. I walked over to the pile of clothes I created before my shower. I picked up the sweater I wore this night and I scoffed. It was Harry's purple knit sweater I kept from him a while ago. 

"Wow, I practically live in H's clothes." I giggled. He meant a lot to me, obviously. But right now, I don't know what to do. We've done everything together and it makes me upset that he's willing to throw it all away. For a girl. A girl that I don't get along with. A girl that practically hates my guts but he's still into her. What the fuck.

I threw the sweater in my closet along with all the other clothes. I made my way to my bed and laid down for a while. I hear my phone buzz below me. I rolled my eyes, thinking it was Harry. I waited a while to text back or to even pick up my phone. I gave up my cold shoulder and picked up the phone. I clicked my phone on and I expected it to be Harry. It wasn't. 

"Hey Liv, its Stella. Hope we can work things out, I mean we should. I am dating your best friend." The text reads. My forehead started to spin. 

"Yeah. Whatever." I send back. She is so annoying and rude. I wanted to punch her through my phone. I tossed around in bed, trying to find comfort. My body ached and my arms were weak. I can't calm down, my emotions are running too high. I hear my phone buzz again. 

"Get used to this now Olivia." The caption read. It was a picture of her and H hugging and kissing. I gulped the lump in my throat but it started to close. I felt tears stream down my face and my body go numb. I threw my phone across the room and lifted the covers over myself. I tried to close my eyes and sleep but it was next to impossible. The picture was embedded in my brain and I cannot get it out. She took him away from me and I don't know how I can live with that. My tears streamed throughout my face like a river and I couldn't stop it. I felt my feet go sensitive. The feeling traveled up towards my calves, knees, then finally my stomach. The numbness snaked its way up towards my head. 

My heart hurts, my head hurts, and my life fucking sucks. My eyes started to droop and I finally felt lifeless. Sleep over came me as my emotions drained out. The feeling was paradise and I could sleep for days. I can't feel anything anymore. My hunger and appetite is diminishing. My mental state was gone. Is this going to last forever? I don't even know how to feel. In reality, I love Harry. I love Harry more than a friend. But at the same I despise him. He Is the rudest person but then can be the most genuine guy. 

I'm way too confused at this moment. I need to sleep and evacuate all of my gut feelings. Harry ruins me like an abusive relationship. One moment he makes me so happy, then the next is an emotional wreck. In an instant he can ruin my feelings and its insane how much he influences me. He sucks up all my senses and emotions. Fuck my life.

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Thank you for reading! It might end a little shorter, but that's okay. I didn't want it to be so long and carry on forever. It will get better at some point.

Love you all,

Jessi x