Janelle's Playboy

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𝙹𝚊𝚗𝚎𝚕𝚕𝚎'𝚜 𝙿𝚘𝚒𝚗𝚝 𝚘𝚏 𝚅𝚒𝚎𝚠

I'm on my way sa rooftop at nag text nako kay Renzo saying na paakyat nako soon enough nag reply siya na he'll be waiting for me daw.

Di ko alam pero for some reason ay kinakabahan ako.

Why on earth was I even nervous for?

I have no idea kung seryoso ba siya sa chinat niya sakin o hindi, I mean, dating him again would complicate things.

And a huge part of me knows na masasaktan si Kenzo if ever na magkabalikan kami ni Renzo.

Honestly, I just don't see the point of dating him. I just don't see us that way pero... pero does dating him means I'll get to push Kenzo away?

It's never my intention to hurt him. Si Kenzo, sobrang hinahangaan ko siya. He seems so sure sa sarili niya, sobrang successful niya in such a young age so who am I to get in the way?

I could cleary remember nung maka-sayaw ko si Travis, yung pinsan niya.

"You like him don't you?"

"That's none of your business," I diverted my gaze away from him, "ang hirap magtiwala ulit sakaniya."

He released a humorous laugh, "Do you honestly think may nangyari talaga sakanila? Ganyan naba kababa tingin mo kay Kenzo? Hindi ba dapat ikaw of all people should know how troublesome Kenzo's place is right now? Lalo na 'nung makilala ka niya and yet throughout it all, pinaglaban ka niya."

He was right. Pinaglaban nga ako ni Kenzo, that's always been Kenzo's way of showing me how much he cares about me.

And... and this is my way of showing him how much he means a lot to me. Ayoko maging hadlang sa pangarap niya.

I'm finally infront of the door papunta sa rooftop nang makita ko na may sticky note na nakalagay dito.

"Follow your heart and be happy."
-Renzo

I don't know but for some reason my tears started to roll down on my cheeks ng dahil sa nabasa ko.

Follow my heart? Is this the sign that I was looking for? Follow your and be happy...

These words are so simple yet it's exactly what I really needed to see. No, wait, it's something I wanted to see.

Bigla akong may natanggap na message, it was from Renzo.

My hands were shaking habang binabasa ko yung conversation nila ni Princess and my tears was threatening to fall ng makita ko din conversation ni Princess pati Becca.

It must've been hard for her as well...

Soon enough may natanggap ulit ako na message galing kay Renzo.

Renzo:
Don't blame yourself from something you can't control. You deserve to be happy as well and I can see that you're at your happiest when you're with him kaya Janelle follow your heart :)