infatuation [jenlisa]

that one time

Let me tell you a story.

Way back when we were trainees, there were times when Jennie and I would often hang out after our rehearsals. We would talk for hours till we had to go home. We would talk about anything under the sun and never get tired of it.

But there was this one night when it was just raining like crazy. Classes were suspended and lessons were cancelled. I remember being so insistent on going to the dance lesson that day because I felt sluggish and I just wanted to dance my worries away. But the rain was so much that it almost flooded the whole city so I knew it was just very dangerous to come out.

Chaeng and Jisoo were at their families at that time so it was just me and Jennie who were left at the dorm. With nothing else to do, I suggested we should just watch a rerun of Orange is the New Black and eat some snacks then maybe sleep in between episodes. We stayed in her room since her bed is much bigger and she has a macbook. So.. you get the point.

Jennie is a cuddle princess. She likes cuddling and hugging and other skinships. She is very touchy when it comes to her close friends. Behind her fierce exterior, she's a softie inside. She's always been really shy when it comes to other people despite her very strong charisma.

Anyway, I didn't mind her being touchy to me. I had this little crush on her but it wasn't that serious. So while watching, she was cuddled up next to me with her head on my chest. I was busy eating a chocolate bar and I was caressing her hair at the same time.. obviously with different hands.

We have both seen Orange on different periods and we loved it. The story was good and funny. The lesbian scenes didn't bother us so much. So when the scene got into Alex and Piper making out in the chapel, I was still unbothered and continued munching on my chocolate bar.

So can you get the view I had? Laptop on my legs and an ever gorgeous girl on my chest. Can I add that her hair smells amazing too? So I put the chocolate bar on the countertop and sat upright. Jennie sat up as well and moved her head to my shoulder.

Both of us watched Alex and Piper go at it. I always had this small crush on Alex because duh, have you seen her? Anyway so I gulped while they were kissing. I've always thought about how it feels to kiss someone. Even if I already saw this scene countless times, it still made me hot.

It didn't help that Jennie suddenly intertwined her hand with mine. I casually turned my head to look at her but I caught her looking at me. She didn't turn away. She just kept her eyes on me. I am very certain about this so don't fucking doubt me because how can I forget the way she looked at me that night? The intensity was something I'd never forget. I almost fell in love.

So picture this, Alex and Piper were still going at it on the laptop screen and here I am with Jennie who was still looking at me exquisitely. I felt my pulse go from average to abnormally high. My heart was beating so fast.

I noticed Jennie's eyes were darting from my eyes to my lips. I brushed my fingers through my hair and licked my lips. I felt like anytime now, I'd explode. Before I knew it, she was slowly inching closer to me. Her eyes were still on my lips. I could feel the tension through the air. I held my breath for what I felt like hours.

"Jen?" I whispered. I felt like my soul was being ripped from my body.

"Yes?" She answered, still focused on my lips.

"What are w—"

"Shh. Just.. let me.. try."

She reached for the collar of my shirt and pulled me closer to her. I gulped.

Then finally I felt a pair of lips on mine.

They were fucking soft I'm telling you.

I felt like a piece of heaven was given to me and everything just felt right. I closed my eyes and enjoyed the moment. This was my first kiss and I didn't mind her taking it.

She took my lower lip and nibbled on it. Jennie pushed me backward causing my back to hit the headboard. Her hand that was intertwined with mine was now on my cheek, caressing it. I kissed her back even if I didn't know what the fuck I was doing.

I have never felt such sensation in my whole life. I felt like I was being electrocuted but in a good way. Also maybe because I couldn't believe that Jennie Kim was kissing me. Like really? I'm such a lucky bastard.

But all good things come to an end. Jennie slowly pulled away from me. I opened my eyes and I saw her back with the bored expression on her face. But I was so flustered and I couldn't take it anymore. I needed to breathe.

So I stood up and headed to the fridge. I placed my hand on my chest and my heart still hasn't calmed down. I mean I knew this wouldn't have bearing or anything because we're both straight.. or are we? I don't know.

I grabbed a bottle of water and drank. I touched my face and it was so hot. I closed my eyes for a moment and sighed. 

"Fuck. I just kissed Jennie Kim." I said to myself. I touched my lips and grinned. But I had a few moments to internalize what just happened because I heard the door of her room close.

I turned around and saw Jennie standing behind me. "Yes you just did. But.. we're not finished yet, Manoban."

Jennie smirked before launching herself to me. I dropped the bottle of water I was holding and caught her with my arms. She quickly captured my lips, this time with more fervency. I was yet again, caught off guard but instinctively wrapped my arms around her waist.

Jennie bit on my lip causing me to yelp and her to insert her tongue inside. I never knew she was this experienced. I felt a moan escape my lips. I lowered Jennie slowly to the ground and she wrapped her arms around my neck. I pinned her against the wall and since I'm such a fast learner, let's say I caught her rhythm and kissed her back with the same intensity.

For what felt like forever, we needed to breathe so I pulled away even if I didn't want to. I inhaled all the air I can get so I could calm down. Jennie bit her lip and looked at me straight in the eyes. I remember all I can hear was the sound of my heart beating like crazy and the rain falling on the rooftop.

Jennie was foxy and I couldn't help but smile back at her.

I tried my best to hold it but I just had to taste those lips again so I leaned in forward. But Jennie put her fore finger on my lips and whispered to my ear.

"Bedroom."

But... maybe I'll tell you about it some other time.

Anyway, I don't think I've told anyone about this before so please keep it a secret. This is gonna be between you and me, alright? To answer your question, no, Jennie's not my girlfriend but we shared something special before and I don't regret anything. We're still good friends so don't forget to stream SOLO!

So I might tell you about that other one night as well.. as long as you keep this a secret okay?

Ciao.