There's a song that I've been wanting to sing lately ... it has a beautiful melody Butterfly 🦋 I played around with the lyrics and melody of this song for hours I sang many versions of Butterfly. Something popped into my head as I singing I thought of a butterfly and the color I imagine the butterfly to be was blue and then I thought of the blue roses that the guy gave me, well more like to Blue. Blue loves the color blue.. I can see why she does. It pretty and very calming. I quickly got out paper and pencil to write down the tittle Blue Rose. "Love is foolish always falling in and out. though we are alike we are not the same. It's the difference between day and night. Our love started with a Blue Rose. I love you like a blue rose." I stopped to reread what I wrote looks good if I want to have a comeback soon. As Rosetta I will show a new side that Blue wasn't able to show. Her tough side, she went through so much endured so much but wasn't able to survive.
For the past few weeks now I've been in my studio composing new songs for my comeback. Yoongi offered to help me out and to guide me. I didn't take his offer I didn't want anything to do with him, instead I had rap Monster help me out. I got close with Monie Oppa, we always have deep conversations but as I lost my memories of everything there wasn't much to talk about except the haters. yes I do receive death threats, fake rumors of getting plastic surgery, and that I'm not able to sing I only wanted attention and be famous. Honestly they can talk whatever they want. As long as they don't bother me I won't snap at them. I will seriously drag them to the floor and make them beg for apology talking about these topics to Namjoon Oppa makes me feel better. He said after knowing me my personality from Blue's we're different.
Rosetta: so you were close with Blue ?
I asked..
Namjoon: no not really I didn't get a chance to work with her, Yoongi wanted to do a unit with her then after that we went on our world tour
I nodded and asked again
Rosetta: Could you tell me more about Blue's life. I'm curious as to why she died.. and Yoongi ... what happened to them ...
he got quiet and didn't say anything
Rosetta: I'm sorry to ask.. I know I don't have the right to know about Blue's life just because I look like her. But I'm curious .. what happened to them. ?
He hesitated
Namjoon: well ... I don't know what to say to you .. honestly you do look like Blue. I look at you as her long lost twin honestly. But after getting to work with you and know you .. since I look at you that way I will tell you what I know.
I looked at his and gave him my full attention
Namjoon: Yoongi fell in love with Blue ever since she was a trainee.. he would always sneak out and try to listen to the songs that she records. He always had an eye for her. He waited till she debuted knowing the consequences of idol and idol dating. Chances were slim honestly .. until I saw them hangout together in cafes. Yoongi would always come back late at night in happy moods. Yoongi would always wait for Y/N by their practice room. He told us that he once took her to the top of the building and confessed his feelings for her. He even told us that he slept with her after we got suspicious of them. He told me his worries about his ex and Blue he wanted to make sure everything was fine before telling Y/N ... he was unsure his self. You know a few weeks before Blue's accident Suan told me that Blue was 3 months pregnant. I decided to wait to tell Yoongi but unfortunately I didn't meet Yoongi as he would always spend his nights and days in his room and studio. Then the bad news happened afterwards.. everyone was upset and sad. Especially Yoongi he felt regretful for not being able to be there for Blue and the Baby. He was mad at himself for recalling those memories of Moonjae ... he spent days regretting them wishing he can take it all back.
I felt tears dropping down from my eyes ... it's must've been hard for Namjoon too to see his member in this way but can't help but only watch.
Rosetta: how's Yoongi Now ?
He looked at me and wiped my tears away.
Namjoon: he's better than before still regretting as he collects a bucket of blue roses by his bed and everyday he would visit Blue's grave with it and buy one more to keep it for next time. He's been doing that ever since
I started crying feeling the empathy and sadness of Blue. Her heart still recognizes, recalls, and remembers all the good and bad memories.
Namjoon: how come you are crying ?
He asked
Rosetta: I don't know ..
I started crying more
Rosetta: I feel bad for them only if she never replied to his confession none of that would've started.
Namjoon just watched me as I continued crying he pulled me closer leaning my head on his chest and he started stroking my back to calm me down. As I was still crying on his chest I kept wondering if I should tell him the truth.. but what if he tells Yoongi ? What if he reveals the truth ? And what if everything that happened repeats again ? Namjoon isn't like that is he ? He will keep a secret like a real mans after all he is a real man...
Rosetta: Namjoon Oppa -ah ...
I said as I stopped crying and looked at him, he cupped my check to wipe of the tears and stared at my face
Namjoon: yes ?
I grabbed his hand away from my face and held it
Rosetta: can you keep a secret ? Promise me with all your heart that you will not tell anyone, even if it's good or bad.
He stared deeply into my eyes as if he can read my mind. And then nodded.
Namjoon: anything for my little Rose
I smiled at him
Rosetta: Actually .. Blue is still alive...
Namjoon looked at me shock with his wide open and asked
Namjoon: don't tell me ... you ... you ..
I quickly nodded to cut in off and looked down
