Rosetta: can you show me to my room ? I want to see it for the last time.
She nodded and took me to my room. The bed is still the same, I saw lots of pictures of me on the wall.
Suan: we decided to keep your bed the same to remind us of you as you are gone.
I looked around the room and saw something familiar, my purse, I went over to it
Rosetta: can I ?
She nodded
Suan: there no need to ask, it's ours anyways I opened the purse to check it out. While looking through it I found a baby examination photo and my phone. I took out the photo and look at it.
Suan: it's your baby boy ..
I felt the tears coming back as I stared at the picture..
Suan: Yoongi also has a copy of the baby.. he asked for it
I turned it over and saw the date and a name, Min Saejoon
Suan: Saejoon was suppose to be the baby's name but unfortunately the baby didn't make it
I felt so sad that my hand automatically went to my tummy...
Rosetta: I'm sorry baby... mommy is sorry Saejoon
I said as I couldn't control my tears as they fall. I took my phone and examined it. It still has a lot of spams but recently stopped the last text was about a month ago.
Rosetta: can I take these with me ?
She nodded
Suan: like I said they are yours ..
I smiled at her and gave her a hug
Rosetta: Thank you Unni ..
Suan: earlier I heard Yoongi talking to you ... do you still love him ?
I stayed silent.. do I still love Yoongi ?
Rosetta: as Rosetta I don't have an answer that question .. but if it's Blue the answer is yes
Suan: then be Blue again.. and comeback to us ..
I pulled away
Rosetta: Unni I can't .. before I even came back to BigHit I made my decision to sail forward without looking back..
Suan: look where you are now .. back in your room
Rosetta: but not for long I only came here to refresh my memories... I will leave you alone now
Suan: come back again to visit okay ?
I nodded but wasn't even sure if Im going to even come back.
My second day off I went to visit my grave... where Blue was buried. There was a temple next to it.. I went to where my photo was placed and stared at it ..
Rosetta: I'm sorry Blue that you went through so much pain. Take a rest I will continue for you .. I won't let anyone or anything hurt you anymore
I looked at the photo sadly. I kept staring and noticed a man with his back towards me down the hallway holding a blue rose in his hand. I quickly ran and hid myself behind the huge temple. The man came and stood by the grave. I recognized the voice as he spoke.
Yoongi: I'm back again as I promised .. here is your rose Blue. I hope you like it. I know how much you love Blue roses.
Its Yoongi... i got sad hearing his low tone full of sadness. I sensed him placing the rose infront of the photo. Yoongi sighed deeply
Yoongi: I want to hug you so bad ... make up for those days that I left you behind as I tried to figure my self out. Our baby Saejoon ... is doing fine is he ? If the accident didn't happen Saejoon would've been born already ...
I heard Yoongi softly cry
Yoongi: he would've been 3 months old ... but sadly he didn't make it. We tried Y/N.. we tried to save him ... I love you and our baby ..
I heard how his voice cracked while speaking made my tears fall.
Yoongi: will give me another chance to make up what I did wrong Y/N ? .... why aren't you answering me ?
His hand almost touched me as hugged the stone and continue to cry softly.
Yoongi: I would still be here even if you don't talk to me .. I won't push you away anymore .. god if you hear this please give me another chance to make it up to her. I love her with all my heart. I tried .. I tried moving on .. I succeeded once .. but Rose, that girl that I told you about before Blue, the girl who looks just like you makes my heartache seeing how she's with someone else. Especially, when that guy is one of my members I can't help but to think of her as you Blue.
Yoongi ... I'm sorry .. Blue is right here.. when I finish what I came for I will make it up to you
Yoongi let go of the rock and wiped his tears.
Yoongi: I got to go Y/N, I'm going to finish that song that we never finished
I heard Yoongi singing a bit of the lyrics:
"I love you like a blue rose, we feel in love in the middle of nowhere, suddenly you appeared out of nowhere and made world new, we fell in love like a blue rose "
Those lyrics ... sounds familiar to the one that wrote the other time. So this is where the idea came from ..
Yoongi stood up
Yoongi: "l promise I'll be back to visit you again Blue..."
as Yoongi was walking away I stood up from behind the rock when I saw that he left. I went back to my studio and called my manager in. As he stoped in he noticed my face.
Manager: where did you go earlier ?
Rosetta: Visit Blue.
My manager just shook his head worriedly. My manger is best friend with Grandmother Yang. Because of him I was able to join BigHit again. My manger Kim, is gay which makes me more comfortable with him.
Manger Kim: do you want to talk about it ?
I shook my head
Rosetta: No, I called you in to talk about Grandmother Yang.. how is she feelings these days she must be very worried about me .. I heard the she hasn't been doing, well how's her health
Manager Kim: the doctor said it was from stress and that she will get better in a few day she just needs to rest. After taking about Grandmother Yang my manager informed me about my upcoming schedule seems like I won't be able to visit Blue.
