Poetry for the strong hearted

Light Weight

I'm never thought about
Never cared for
Always told how great I am
Never truly shown
I've never felt so alone
In company of people
Who should feel like home

Though it is my fault
I can't seem to accept
The love i'm shown
I feel so lost and stranded
Everywhere I look
Seems the wrong way to grow

I wanna go home
And to me that's no where on this planet
For me home is the thought of death
And the feeling I get as I plan it

Temporary connections
will never be enough
I fake happiness so easily
It feels treasonous

For it's true I have them all fooled
Thinking I'm a light
Thinking I'm alright
Thinking I'm so kind
Thinking all but the facts

Because factually I'm scattered
I don't know we're I'm at
I may be nice to you
But am I kind to myself
I may be a light for you
But I can't see a thing on these shelfs
I may look alright to you
But I am not

This body I wear feels like rott