A LETTER TO YOU | MYG X BTS

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i'm sorry.

i'm sorry for all the fucking trouble i caused. i'm sorry that i wasn't strong enough to face my fears. i'm so fucking sorry. believe me.

i just couldn't. it was so fucking hard to pretend. to pretend to be okay. to stay strong when i knew i would fall. you would always ask me, 'what's wrong?'

baby, i can't tell you.

i couldn't tell you. my mouth wouldn't open. i felt as if everything was crumbling. i was shattered. a broken piece of glass that can't be fixed.

my limbs felt numb. my lungs were burning inside. my head is killing me, love. my head hurts so bad, it hurts.

i heard voices every night. begging me to just end it all.

i couldn't tell you i was slowly killing myself. whether it be the cancer sticks that i would smoke or the silts on my thighs.

i went up to the rooftop the night after our concert. i felt so free. the city lights were so pretty, it was blinding.

god, it felt so nice. i wanted to let go, so bad. my mind begging me to just let go of the railing.

but i was to much of a coward to even do that. too much of a coward to do a simple little thing.

i could list millions of ways to end it all. i could do anything. i'm so sorry, babe.

my feelings were all jumbled up but i love you all, so much. you know that, right? you know that i'll love you to the moon and back. but i'm so sorry. i just couldn't handle it anymore.

i'm sorry, my love. i hope you can forgive me for doing this. we said we would grow up too be old men. but forget me. it'll be easier that way. i'm sorry for leaving so soon. i know i said i wouldn't but here we are.

i love you all so damn much. don't forget about that. nothing will change us. i promise we'll meet in another life.

                                              

                                     

                                          sincerely yours,
                                                           min yoongi.