Different
Chapter 1
I was a church girl.I had been serving God for the longest time.Yes, at times i got so lonely and wondered why i was still single at 27 but i knew the Lord would bring someone to me at His perfect time.I know most of you will think i am crazy when i say so.Most of my church mates were getting married but no man seemed to eye me.Was i not beautiful enough?Was i not dressing well?As a pastoral trainee,I wanted to be married before i was ordained and completely became a pastor..How unlucky?!Okay, let me try describe myself, maybe it will give you a picture of what i look like.I am not that tall,black beauty complexion, i mean i am a kalenjin, you know the color, my skin is flawless,never had adolescence pimples,i am not curvy but i have a bubbly body,i love keeping my hair natural and i don't do any make up, and most of my friends called me Chaurembo or Chauu,so yes i was pretty..Could it be i was too pretty for men..(laughs while writing) maybe not.Honestly, i was getting tired of waiting.The last time a guy asked me out i was 21 and it did not go so well..Wanna hear the story?
So there was this guy at church i had noticed sometime.He was really handsome.I think he liked me too, because he would smile every time he saw me.Guys, get this picture, he was quite tall,very light, slender (just the way i like it), oops!! forgive me, he has short, neat hair, always in nice classy clothes, he had a car and he really loved the Lord.The day he asked me out, i started thanking God instead of asking God for guidance.I blindly went for a few dates and by the fourth date, we had started holding hands.Before i knew it, he would stop, look at me in the eyes and tell me how beautiful i was.Oh darling!! I was falling in love, okay truth, i was in love.His name was Kantai.He was a maasai.I am sure you guys know how handsome maasai men are.
Days passed by and this one Sunday, he took me to a very expensive restaurant.With my Kalenjin background i had never gone to such a place in my life.He could tell i was surprised.He said, "Chauu, relax, its just a restaurant" as he laughed.i tried, although it was not easy at all.This is the night he asked if i could be his girlfriend and without hesitation i said yes.He gave me a promise ring and promised me all beautiful things.He is the one who suggested we date in purity and yes, this is the man i had always wanted.At that moment i thought, 'where have you been all my life?!' I never thought deeper.
So my dating life began.They all say, a woman in love glows brighter than the sun and that was the truth.I began to glow and look happier than ever.All my friends were so happy for me.Finally i had found the one.Kantai was so perfect.You mean such men still do exist?!I was among the lucky ones.The DIFFERENT one.The pastor for marriage and relationships counselled us and blessed us.We had dated for a few months and all was going well.I was a happy woman.So this one Sunday after service, i went to Kantai's normal sitting place but he wasn't there.He always walked alone so i had no one to ask.I got worried but then i tried calling him...SHOCK OF MY LIFE!!!!it said that the number was no longer in service.How? We had just spoken that morning and agreed to meet after service for lunch.Where was he? The love of my life was missing.I had never gone to his house so i had nowhere to look for him.He was not a social media person so that was not an option.I checked his whatsapp,the profile picture was gone.There was nothing.It all seemed like a dream.
Kantai never loved selfies, so i had no picture of him.I only knew he was a lawyer but i did not know which firm he worked for.Where was i to start anyway?!i had to pray..i kept praying, i started fasting.Weeks went by, he was nowhere to be found.i got sick, i cried for weeks, i could not go to work or school, my friends graduated and were ordained as pastors, i was still trying to push through my situation.Everyone just kept praying and comforting me, but that was not enough, i wanted Kantai.i just wanted Kantai to come back.What did i do wrong?Was i such a bad person?!Was i not good enough..Who was this God?!how unfair could He be?i held on a bit longer.
So this one sunday,before service, i was ushering people in at the enterance.I had healed a bit, i had accepted it happened and i had moved on for a second.Then i saw Kantai's car come in at the gate.I got excited.For some reason my feet could not move, i just wanted to hug him and tell him how much i missed him.He came out, looking as handsome and as sharp as usual.He walked round the car and opened the door for someone, just as he used to do with me.A beautiful, lightskinned, almost white lady came out holding a baby.She was so beautiful i gazed.What was going on?Who was she?His sister?I hoped.They walked towards me.Kantai smiled broadly when he saw me.I was sure he had an explanation.Where had he been for 7 months??i smiled back, confused of course.He came and hugged me passionately.He then looked at the lady and said, "honey, say hi to Chaurembo, she is the lady i told you about.Chauu this is my wife, Ezra and out 3 months old daughter Joybee.." I could not speak.My tongue was tied.I just watched them enter and sit.They looked so happy together.I ran to the washrooms and cried for hours..i was so done with this God.How could He?i took my things and left church..i took the next bus to Kericho..I was over and done with life..
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