"Hello Chau" I heard a voice call me from behind the information desk.It was him,I mean who else? He stretched his hand to say hi.To be honest,I didn't want to say hi back (guess you know what that means) of course I wanted to cry and rant.
I wanted an explanation,I wanted closure,I wanted to hear him talk but all that came out of my mouth was ,"hi".He could tell I was quite pissed so he asked if I could see him in his office we talk.At first I didn't want to go,if you believe that you don't know me well...of course I wanted to go..So he started talking,"Chau I'm sorry.I know this is hard for you.I know since that day I introduced my wife it has never been easy.I wanted to tell you so bad,but I was scared you would judge me.I was dating you in purity but Ezra,her and I come a long way and we messed up and where she comes from I had to marry her when she got pregnant" The way he looked at me oh Lord,I wanted to believe him but I had moved on right? I just needed to get out of this office and go serve God right? "So you don't love her?" I asked.He went quiet for a minute,rubbed his chin,yeah I thought so too."Chau she is the money of my children" he said...Hold a whole 60 seconds,children??? They added another one? Oh okay..now I'm losing it.I'll get a panic attack in this office."congratulations Kantai" I said smiling.
Lord knows how much I wanted to bust and just die,but once again,I had moved on right?First things first,I wasn't the problem,that's cleared,secondly,these things do happen.Its just life.I just stood up to walk out when he said,"I miss you Chau,I miss us." I...I...I...I wanted to walk out,I really did,for sure this time.He walked towards me,his tallness was always a weakness for me,his well kempt hair,the nice suit,did I tell you about how neatly cut his finger nails were,oh Jesus and his cologne,it always was a turn on..so he locked the door behind me,he looked into my eyes,the short me,he was so close to me,honestly I could feel his whole body (if you know,you know) I could feel his breath against my skin.He then whispered in my ears,"I'm sorry Chau.I can only be your pastor,nothing more."
I pushed him back and ran out so frustrated.Honestly I was already getting turned on..oh my! I'm sorry I should sound like a church girl,though we get turned on too.Kantai was just a pastor and thats all he could be to me.I wish you'd hear him preach,maaaan,you'd die for him thrice,more than Pastor Manuel,literally.Kantai was such a gem honestly.So few months later,he was transferred to the other branch of our church and that made me so relieved.Not to say I wouldn't see him but at least not as much.So here comes the juicy part,a new pastor was brought to the church and he was to be head of the ushering ministry,which I was chairlady for.So drum rolls,he was single,hot and very sweet.First day he introduced himself,"Praise God,Treetop Church,my name is Pastor Gabriel but people call me Pastor Gabby or Pastor G" heeeey,somebody please breath for me because its getting super stuffy in here.Oh Lord!
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