Judgemental (Will x Dipper Gleeful)

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Wills POV

I don't know why. But slowly my fear suddenly seemed to disappear. The beast was more open, he came out more to talk to me and the others. It was- like something completely different. It changed in an instant. One day, I was reciting something to myself, from the book I couldn't stop reading, I knew it by memory at this point. The beast looked at me, "What are you quoting?" He asked, from the comforts of his bed. "H-Huh? Oh- nothing, j-just a story I-I like" I said quickly. "F-Forget I-I was doing that-" I laughed quietly. He nodded slowly, before saying "Do you like reading?" He asked me. I looked up, nodding slightly "Uh- y-yeah" I said kind of awkwardly. "I-I love reading- b-but my brother m-makes sure I-I dont have t-time to read.. Th-That I can't-" I said, my voice kind of faint. The beast smiled slightly, getting up, to which I yelped. "Y-You should b-be resting!" I said quickly. He shrugged "Im fine, it was just a little scratch, come on Willa, I want to show you something" He told me. I tilted my head slightly, but followed him.

He opened large doors to reveal a massive library. My eyes opened wide as I looked at it, amazed. This is more books than the library in the village ever had! "Here you can read anything you'd like" The beast told me. "I-Its... Th-Theres so m-many books..." I said quietly. "I-I can really r-read all of these?" I asked him. "Well of course, I've read them all anyway" he shrugged. "R-Really? I-I-I c-can really read th-them?" he must've seen how happy and excited I was, because he said "Well.. If you like it that much, then it's yours" he said. "Wh-What-?" I asked, "The library is yours now" I covered my mouth, silently squealing. "Th-Thank you thank y-you thank you!" I said jumping up and down, my dress bouncing slightly, and feeling slightly hurt from all my scars and stuff- I winced slightly "Ow-"

He tilted his head, partially concerned, "You are wincing quite a lot, are you hurt?" He asked me. "N-No! I-I-Im fine! D-Dont worry a-a-about m-me, please!" I said laughing slightly, super awkwardly. "You know you can tell me if something is wrong" He said. "N-Nothings wrong!" I squeaked. Theres no way I could ever tell him about all my scars and history of abuse.  What if he asks to see? I can't have him risk knowing! He raised an eyebrow "Why do you wear long sleeves all the time? And I've noticed a few cuts on your neck" he pointed out. I rubbed my neck slightly "J-Just clumbsy-" I said quietly. He took my arm "So if I rolled up your sleeve, nothing would be there?" He asked. "N-No!" And, as if I believed he wouldn't, he rolled up my sleeve to reveal a number of bruises, burns, stabs, and cuts. He- seemed surprised, his eyes widened slightly "What...? Is your whole body like this?" I felt a panicked, I pulled away my hand and stepped back slightly. No, it got worse towards the torso to be honest. "I-I- l-leave me alone.. P-Please..." I said quietly, looking away and holding my scarred, beat up arm. I felt the tears start to flow down my cheeks at the very thought of it. I couldn't bare look at the reminders. "Did.. You do this to yourself? Or did someone do this to you?" He asked me. I looked away, breathing slightly heavy.

What should I do? "I-It- its nothing... Its n-nothing..." I said, my voice quiet and weak. "J-Just- l-l-leave m-me alone r-right now-" I said, before he could repsond I ran out of the room, pulling down my sleeve.

Careful children! It's dangerous now! There is self harm and- I don't know I guess a suicide attempt? Be aware! And before you ask, yes I'm alright, just following the characters mind set.

I hurried down the hall and hurried into my room. Lazy Susan was fast asleep, I looked around everywhere until I found a pair of scissors. I needed something. Something! A type of Pain.. Anything! I put the sharp blade on my hand, swiping it across. Blood formed and I cried out in pain.

I saw Lazy Susan wake up, "Huh..? Willa? What are you doing with those scissors?" She asked me. She looked at my hand, the blood seeping out and dripping quickly. "Oh my- Master! Stanley, Stanford quick!" She yelled. I panicked, stepping back. I saw the brothers come in "What is it? Willa your hand!" Stanford said. I got closer to the balcony "D-Dont come a-any closer!" I said, my eye was glowing slightly out of fear. My hands burst in a blue flame "Willa calm down!" Stanley said. "Th-Th-Thats n-not my name!" I said. "William!" Lazy Susan said. "Please! Calm down!" "I-I-I dont w-want to h-hurt any of you!" I said. "You won't hurt us!" Stanford said. "Put down the scissors and let us help you" he said calmly. I climbed up onto the balcony. "N-No! I-I- I-I want it to s-stop" I said with tears running down my cheeks. "S-Stop lying! Wh-Why cant y-y-you h-hate me? H-Hurt me e-every day l-like my brother! U-Use me like th-that s-s-stupid M-Mabel girl! D-Despise m-me like the entire town! Wh-Why don't y-you admit y-y-you h-hate me!?" I cried. They all seemed surprised, I had vented so much. I was so use to hatred... And, I turned the scissors towards me. "And most o-of all. Wh-Why can't I-I just die already!?" The Beast burst into the room, just as I stabbed the scissors into my stomach, and fell off of the balcony.