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×V's life story×

_Chapter one_
_part three_

"If it weren't for me, my friend would still be... happy." sad part is , she never got to FIX anything she wanted to FIX anything. Her stats of being HAPPY DROPPED AGAIN, and she hated herself more and more... till that one friend who she treated like a SISTER later on left her along with the new guy friend she made. She grew distant, didn't make any friends from then on cause she felt like they would only leave her....

She grew depressed every day, every hour, every passing minute... she just felt guilty for all the mistakes she did, even it it wasn't intentional...

    She grew bitter and blamed herself, because at that time she suffered from a break up from her Girlfriend. Yes, V is bisexual. NOT a lesbian. V loved that girl, yet that girl left her.

When V was moving on, she met a girl online and they talked until they too began to date. (This was after her moving on for a year) this second relationship with a girl lasted for ALMOST a year.

Between her Relationship with this new girl, she met new friends and she was TOO happy so the world had to let her know that she WAS NOT ALLOWED to be happy... destiny led her to find NEW friends but she didn't leave her old buddy's. These new friends made her feel wanted even of 3 of them knew her life story, even if they knew how horrid her past was. She kept on pretending to be happy just TO KEEP HER FRIENDS.

She pretended to have NORMAL feelings, she loved her (ex) girlfriend more than her own life so when they BROKE up SHE entered a whole new level of depression, adding everything to the pile of bullshit that filled her up to her own limit. SHE HATED HERSELF more than she already did.... she hated no one, but herself.

×TO BE CONTINUED×