Feelings

Chapter 2 - Trust?

I'm not gonna lie, both of us had a lot of differences. Not that both of us were from a different race, religion or   childhood, both of us didn't really look like best friends. She was the type of student who's trying to find a relationship and chased her crush a.k.a. my best friend who's a guy. Not a surpise, she's straight. Despite her compliments she gives me or whatever you call them.

"Words don't mean anything, only actions do." I thought.

  Yeah, that's really true. She liked my best friend, a lot. So I decided that i didn't want to be best friends with her. You think that it's immature but the reasons are true and you're going to live through it in your teenager life.

Reasons
1. I'm going to live a delusional life thinking that she likes me.
2. She's going to ask me about him, not just once but multiple times.
3. He's my best friend after all and I appreciate our friendship more than hers.
4. She didn't help me in anything, she only compliments me and asks me for help on her homework.
5. After I found out her phone number, she pretty much left me on seen when I message her. 
6. She likes gossiping, our personalities are wayyy off.
7. She asks me to hang out with her but literally doesn't do it.

and the list goes on..

  Let's go back to where I left off when
I said that she got abused by her stepdad. I'll admit, I really broken when I saw her wearing a cast that she covered because she got caned by her stupid, asshole and insane stepdad. She told me that it was just that she fell down in her house. Damn. I wonder how you could get such a big injury by falling down in your home. Of course, I didn't really care until my friends starting talking about her. I didn't want to make people feel suspicious about me asking about her so I decided to text her. I managed to get her phone number right? I did, she told me to meet her at recess. I knew she was hiding her feelings, a talent that really didn't benefit her because I can read emotions pretty well.

  When I met her at recess, it looked like talking to me was really uneasy to her. But yeah, luckily my irritating echoing voice made her tell me 1/4 of the whole situation as I respected her privacy and it would suck telling someone about what a terrible incident she had been through. Then she asked me to text and call her as she was really bored. She also apologised for not replying when she was in her mad stepdad's house.

"Oh. Maybe she's not that bad after all." I thought to myself again.

That's when I thought wrong.

   Today's my best friend's birthday, and guess what? I decided to tell my crush because I trust her. Like a lot. She doesn't know that I have a crush on her and it doesn't matter if she knows or not. She won't like me back, we're just "friends". So, I messaged her.

Me: Do you know what is today?

My crush: No, what is it?

Me: Your crush's birthday haha.

My crush: Omg whaat? Thanks for telling me.

"Oh wow, you can't remember your crush, a.k.a. your soon to be boyfriend's birthday? He literally has the same date as you except that your birthday is two months sooner.." I thought, with a straight face.

That was when I regretted to say that I trust my crush.

My best friend: *sends me a screenshot of the conversation between my crush and I*

(Yeah I still have the screenshot in my gallery. I thought it would be personal to show it out as my phone number is there and there's people's names.)

  I looked at the photo twice, then I realized my crush hasn't saved my phone number in her contacts. The wallpaper has her selfie, the texts we sent blocked it so I couldn't really see her pretty face.

   Okay fuck that, she literally sent a photo of your conversations with her and it's supposed to be private. It's literally about who your best friend likes. How aren't you mad about it? Is my best friend gonna be mad at the face that I told my crush who he likes as my crush was literally spamming eagerly and begging me to tell?

Me: Hahahaha

I tried to laugh it off, as I had to go to school for some event going on. I'll sort it out later.

My best friend: You're in school right?

My best friend: Hellooo?

My best friend: Answer, i'm bored.

"Ugh. I'm so not in the mood for this shit." I muttered as I saw the notifications and decided to put my phone in my pocket.

Call from your best friend.

  My phone vibrated vigorously in my pocket, I couldn't decline the call as it was from my best friend so I decided to accept the call.

"Yes. Why did you call me for?" I said in my most moody voice, which sounded like a dying cat but whatever.

"Did you see the messages I sent?" my best friend asked.

"Yes, I did and what for?" I said.

"Oh since you're in school, we could hang out afterwards if you wanna. I'm bored so what time do you end this thing?" my best friend replied.

Phew, he wasn't asking me about what I texted so that's a good sign? He's probably not mad at me? I thought, my best friend's a chill dude after all.

"OOOH YOU ARE GOING ON A DATEEE!!" I heard my two friends who drags the words they pronounce. Oh, of course my two friends who were interested in knowing everyone's crush, would say that.

"Go out with your girlfriend instead." I said ignorantly as I knew that would make my two irritating friends stop the chanting.

"I don't know her address." my best friend responded.

"Okay fine, I don't know when this thing is ending but I think it's around 11.30a.m."

Call ended. How was the quality of your voice call?

Oh wow, this guy sure is bored. I tried to call him again but instead, it was his mom who picked up the phone. We talked for a while and I ended the phone.

  What kind of guy does not bring his phone to hangout with his best friend? This guy.

  After finishing the project for today, my beloving, kind teacher bought us McDonald's for the hard work we did for the art project. I'll admit, I did pretty much nothing as I had to go for something and came back with only half an hour left.

update: yeehaw nobody reads my terrible story because its lame lmao. ill still update it sometimes though. peace. - emily