hey.
i'm sorry i haven't been talking much.
sometimes i just don't know what to say, and i'm afraid that if i do say something it won't make you feel any better, and therefore it'll make you feel worse.
idk, i'm sorry. i mean i've also been doing stuff obviously but i could easily still find the time to just message you sometime. but yeah, i'm sorry. i think writing this here sort of gives me a chance to say how i feel without directly saying it to you, (so basically when i'm feeling like a real pussy i come here WOW). idk, i just don't want to fuck up, i'm scared that if i fuck up then something really bad will happen. idk, just ever since those two days where stuff happened and everything idk i just freaked out and sometimes i still do and i think that causes me to procrastinate when it comes to messaging you or something.
idk, i'm sorry.
