16 years | l. messi

9. anywhere is home with you.

| LANA |

Evenings came back and went, stars shunned and dulled into the blue beautiful blanket we called the sky, fall came by and went, two months and I still had no direction to go where. My baby laid in my arms as I stroked his hair, so soft, it put silk to shame. As I looked at his sleeping figure in my lap, I couldn't help think of all that had happened in this time, from Leo to coming back to Argentina, I was finally home, and nobody knew about it.

Leo was never supposed to find me, he never was supposed to still be in love with me after all these sixteen years, he wasn't supposed to be with someone so impure like myself.

He deserved everything I couldn't give him.

He deserved happiness, he deserved a girl who was compatible for him, a girl who didn't have a baby already for him to take care of for the sake of his childhood love.

I didn't deserve him, I never did. He was always too good, for me, at least.

I don't know the actual reason I left France, seemed like a good idea back then -- to get away from all the mess that had been made, I didn't know where I would go but then I rememebered, there never was quite a home better than the place I had grown up in the company of a beautiful young boy.

I don't know why didn't I come here  sooner, this was where my heart was, I was such a fool to not realize it earlier.

Here, it was home.

I knew no one would find me in such a place, under the starry sky where Leo and I had promised each other an eternity, the place we both had our first kiss.

I only hope that he finds what he truly deserve.

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| LEO |

Everywhere, all of France, all of Spain.

I had looked everywhere for her, it had been months since she had disappeared, five to be precise, yet I couldn't find her. I had failed, miserably, I don't know why I had allowed myself to think about her again but eversince Emery had told me about her disappearance, I just couldn't help it.

I don't know what I was doing wrong, I should've been able to find her, I had told my security team to find her no matter what the consequences, and they had searched every corner of the two countries, yet, they couldn't locate her.

Failure wasn't something I was used to.

Because of her, I let my guard down all over again, even when 8 had promised myself I wouldn't, why did I keep doing this?

Because you're still hopelessly in love with her.

I roll my eyes.

Maybe she wasn't meant to be found, maybe she didn't want to be looked for.

"I'm sorry, Emery but I think we should stop the search." I had told the poor man over the phone with a heavy heart, search had been stopped just today. He didn't say anything in return, maybe he had nodded or even cried but I could see that. "Yeah, okay. Thank you for everything these past months." He gave away no emotion.