Seeking As-sakeenah

The cousin🌸

Kulthum was lost in her own thoughts as she stood by the front door to the main home. Nineteen years had passed since she lost her entire world, all of her power, and everything. Her heart still melts at the thought of her husband never getting to see his daughter smile, let alone laugh or even cry. It still feels like an open wound that won't get better. Kalthum believed that crying was the only thing that could provide her with relief, which made each step forward more difficult.

"Adda" Firdausi called out "kawu yusuf wants to see you, he's at his part" she said but didn't get a response from her mother

"Adda" she said getting closer to her

"Yes" Kalthum said wiping her tears away while sniffling. she didn't want firdausi  to see her that way, not on this day"

"Adda are you crying....why are you crying haaba adda on this special day you promised you won't cry" firdausi said getting close to her "adda today is my gaisuwa fah and you're crying aren't you supposed to be happy?"

Everything Felt like yesterday, It all started like a joke. firdausi first met her soldier at ayman's visiting. Non of them new they were cousins or what destiny had in store for them. Ever since ayman's visiting they exchanged numbers and their bond became unbreakable.

one evening Kalthum was at her part in the family house /where she later resided after the death of her husband/ when hamma Yusuf firdausi's uncle and Kalthum's brother summoned her to his part to dicuss firdausi's future with bashir the two cousins seemed so close and marriage felt like a very good option and boom everything began to happen.

Kalthum wiped her tears and hugged Firdausi real hard

"Adda you're squeezing me"

"Yes i know" she said slightly smiling
"Have you bathed" she asked and firdausi laughed while walking out of the room

"Come back here" Kalthum said

"Mmmmmh adda I can't hear you...I'm coming" and with that she ran away making a smile find it's way on Kalthum's face.

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Firdausi bathed and wore her black and golden abaya which spelt elegance allover her even if she wasn't going to be around for her gaisuwa she still had to look presentable.

The whole house was already smelling like food Kalthum assigned jamila to put the turaran wuta hajiya yaana brought during Khadija's naming ceremony. Kalthum was really trying hard to suppress the pain she was going through although today was meant to be a happy day but this same day was also the day she lost her hayat.

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"The first step...is ongoing...I'm so happy Dausi....we're coming by 2:00 InshaAllah" Bashir's voice came through the phone

"Ameen baby..I can't believe it's finally happening......on a scale from one to ten how nervous are you?" firdausi asked while laughing

"Dausi chargiii I'm not nervous" He lied

"You're talking as if I don't know you"firdausi said still laughing

"Why would i be nervous when this is what i want...I can't even wait to get it over with" he continued

"Iyyye Bashir chargiii kenan"she said as she laughed hard

"Dausi baaabye i have to go" he said

"Okay B bye"

for so long firdausi has being denying but now she feels like she's flying and falling at the same time she was so sure this was what she wanted then she decided to pray two nafls to thank Allah