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So my brother Gatlinn came home for a while and it was a surprise and right when he walked in I dropped my food (of course my fat ass was eating) and I ran to him I hugged him and I started balling my eyes out because he's so amazing and I just love being around him he's just I don't know he makes me feel happy and like I can say anything and it's amazing.
Then my oldest sister Brittany randomly showed up and I hardly see her so it was good to see her and talk to her about things and she is actually gonna try to let my mom and dad to let me move in with her and go to a different school or take online classes which would be amazing and she lives closer to Gatlinn and his girlfriend so yeah.
School starts Thursday I'm freaking out and I really need/want your guys' support because you guys are amazing and always know how to make me smile and laugh and Oh my god I love you so so so much I wish I could just hug every single one of you everyday and for the people I have inspired/saved I want you to know that you are my heros and I honestly wouldn't be here if it wasn't for all of you guys.
I almost have 4 million readers and thats fucking amazing!!
Song of the day- Flat Line by Justin Bieber
Your POV:
When I woke up I walked over to the bathroom and checked my eyes
"No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no! This can't be happening." I said while blinking and rubbing my eyes
It was still there though its getting worse and worse
All the bad thoughts swarmed my mind
I backed up and covered my mouth and cried
I slid down the wall and sat there and cried as I heard everything in my mind yell at me
I saw flashes of my mom hitting me, people sending me hate, my self hate coming back.
My eyes.. There going dull.
I can't keep doing this.
I quietly walked out of the bathroom and grabbed a sweatshirt and my shoes
I had my spandex on and I didn't feel like changing out of them
I walked out of the room quietly and went to Cameron's room
"Psst... Cam." I said while waking him up
"What?" He asked while keeping his eyes shut and sitting up
"I need a favor, my friend Ellen needs cigarettes and shes not 18 yet do you think you could buy them for her and I'll give them to her?" I lied Ellen doesn't smoke... That I know of
"I guess, but are we gonna walk there?" He asked
"Yeah." I said while grabbing him a shirt and sweat pants
He slipped them on then grabbed a jacket and shoes
He tiredly grabbed his wallet and opened the door
When we got outside the cool morning breeze hit us and I got goose bumps
"So this Ellen chick is in Oklahoma?" He asked
"Uh yeah shes here to visit her uh grandma." I said trying not to make eye contact with him
"Oh cool. Wait is this the Ellen who was in jail with you?" He asked
