I know it's really hard to believe but I'm not good with words, so I'll try to make this as good as possible.
Right now, you are my world. You are my everything. I talk about you, I dream about you, and I think about you. I wish you were here to calm me whenever I feel down, and I wish you were here for me to support cause trust me, you need it.
I understand why you don't want to tell certain people about us but it still hurts, I brag about you day and night, to anyone who is willing to listen. Just ask my friends.
I remember the first time I saw how your eyes sparkle. It wasn't the most romantic of times as we were in fact, having a little fun of our own but I made a note in my mind. His eyes are amazing.
I remember the first time you told me you love me. I couldn't believe it, I thought you were kidding and I was nearly too scared to say it back, despite having needed to say it for weeks.
I remember the first time I found out about your past. I thought nothing of it, I didn't think it would lead to this but that doesn't mean that I don't think we can fight past it. We are strong. We can make it.
I remember the first time we hung out with ShortBeanie, I was skeptical. I thought he hated me. I never thought he'd be one of our best friends. I never liked his wifey until I got to know her, I regret being so wrong about her. She's amazing.
I remember gushing to my friends about you. Being called your Mrs for weeks until I could finally hush them. They got so excited when I told them we were finally dating. I wonder how they feel now. They're probably worried. I'd be worried about them, too.
I remember hanging out with you that Monday after college. Meeting all of our new friends. What a glorious day that was. I miss it, but I don't miss wishing I could kiss you. I hated not being able to express my feelings for you, I felt like a fool.
I remember sitting on your lap, telling you how much I loved you. I remember hearing you say it back. I absaloutely loved whenever you'd stop me just to remind me that you care, that you love me.
I remember meeting you, I thought you were the most stunning person to ever come across my gaze. I wanted- No.. I needed to stay in contact with you. So instead of watching my friend sing (Like a good friend should've), I got your information.
I remember kissing you for the first time. I know it's cheesy but I honestly felt fireworks. You probably don't remember it, but I do and I loved it.
I remember flirting my ass off just to try to impress you. God, I was such a fool and yet I'd still do it now.
I remember writing my first song for you. I still think I could have done better and maybe if we ever get married, I'll play it for you. It's not all that great but it's the thought that counts.
I remember when you kissed me goodbye for the first time. My heart had almost jumped out of place, I was ecstatic. I made sure to tell the girls all the gossip that night.
I would remember when I got you back, but I'm still waiting for that.
