The hood family

Chapter 4

Ever since Renesme ,has been in hospital . Everyone stopped talking to me even my own husband and child . They think it was my fault but it wasn't ,I mean I'm a good mom but Calum he has to go to band practise all the time and I have to look after Lucas ,then I go and see Renesme and that has been my routine . I'm sick off it.!

I'm upstairs ,in the bathroom putting on mascara . You see if I dint have a mirror ,who knows what I would look like. I hear people talking , I knew who it was . So I'm going down there and just ask why there not talking to me. I put my mascara on the shelf and walked out of the bathroom . I walked downstairs and into the living room to pick up Lucas's toys and I was about to pit them in the toy box in the other room until someome spoke to me.

"Hey shannon ." Said jesy

"Now ,you talk to me." I said

"Drop the attitude ." Said jasmine

"You can shut the hell up, ever since Renesme has been in hospital and you haven't helped me through it, none of you of use have." I said ,looking at mom then everyone else.

"We're sorry." Said jade

"No ,your not because, I don't want people in my life ,who doesn't help me through things and now even my own husband child doesn't talk me anymore ." I said

They all stayed quite .

"That's what I thought ." I said walking out of the room

I walked out of the room and went to the other room and dropped Lucas's toys in the toy box. I after I did that I walked up stairs and into the spare room ,it had ,drums,guitars ,keyboard ,piano and a recording studio. I walked towards the piano and started ' I look to you by Whitney Houston .'

As I lay me down,

Heaven hear me now.

I'm lost without a cause

After giving it my all.

Winter storms have come

And darkened my sun.

After all that I've been through

Who on earth can I turn to?

I look to you.

I look to you.

After all my strength is gone,

In you I can be strong

I look to you.

I look to you.

And when melodies are gone,

In you I hear a song.

I look to you.

About to lose my breathe,

There's no more fighting left,

Sinking to rise no more,

Searching for that open door.

And every road that I've taken

Lead to my regret.

And I don't know if I'm going to make it.

Nothing to do but lift my head

I look to you.

I look to you.

After all my strength is gone,

In you I can be strong

I look to you.

I look to you.

And when melodies are gone,

In you I hear a song.

I look to you.

My levees are broken

My walls have come

Tumbling down on me

The rain is falling.

Defeat is calling.

I need you to set me free.

Take me far away from the battle.

I need you.

Shine on me.

I look to you.

I look to you.

After all my strength is gone,

In you I can be strong

I look to you.

I look to you.

And when melodies are gone,

In you I hear a song.

I look to you.

With Calum -

I was thinking and I realise that my wife needs me, I can't be husband that doesn't help through stuff but that how I'm acting . I hear someone play the piano and I know it was shannon ,she was playing I look to you by Whitney Houston .

"Wow,I feel really bad." Said zayn

"We all do." Said jasmine

"But me and daddy feel ,worse because we're not helping her." Said Lucas

"I know buddy ." Said Calum

"Should we go upstairs ." Said perrie

"Yeah." Said Calum

We all got up and walked upstairs and into the guest room. As she finished playing the piano ,we all saw her break down . She had Nessie's' hospital bracelets her hands.

I put Lucas down and I walked over to her and cuddled her. She kept moving away but at one point I hold her ,a bit tight that she can't move . She keeps trying to push me away but then she gave up.

"I'm so sorry ." I said

"I know you are, you dick." Shannon said

"You know i love you right .?" I said d

"Of courses but why did you and Lucas and everyone stopped talking to me." Said shannon

"Because,we thought it was the best to give you some space and stop talking to you." I said

"Well,it did work a bit but I need you and Lucas and everyone ." Said shannon

"I know you do." Said jade who has sat down next shannon

"We'll help you stay strong,not hurt your self or cry all the time." Said perrie

"No matter ,what shannon. We'll always help you." Said Luke

"Yeah,we will ." Said cher

Then everyone came down and sat down but I saw Lucas standing at the door.

"Come here baby." Said shannon

He ran towards her and people made space for him, he came into the hug .

"I love you mommy." Said Lucas

"I love you baby ,no matter what." Said shannon.