I hate it here.
I want to leave and never come back.
What do you do when the one you love loves another woman?
Sit there and take it?
Ask if he'll ever go back?
I shouldn't have said anything.
Maybe then we would be normal.
Maybe then I wouldn't feel like death.
Maybe then I wouldn't feel hopeless.
Maybe then nothing would've changed.
You won't reply to me
You won't reassure me that everything will be ok
Does that mean it won't?
Is that your way of leaving me?
I don't know what to do
I've thought about cutting and I need to be stronger
I've honestly thought about death but maybe you just need some time
My mind is slowly settling for hurting my skin
Would you care?
Would you even try to stop me?
Would you even care if I did something like that?
What if I ruined my future.
Would you care then?
What if I left and never came back.
Would you ever come look for me?
What if I ended up in the hospital.
Would you still ignore me?
I love you with everything I have.
I love how you are
I love how you look
I love how you act
I don't care if you love someone else
It hurts yeah but I want you
If you loved them more than me you would be trying to make things work with them
But you aren't
Because you love me
At least, I thought you loved me
I'm scared that you're going to fall out of love with me
I'm scared you'll want nothing to do with me
I'm scared that you're gonna see how things really are and realize that you could have so much better
Please,
I need you in my life
I've given you all I can.
Soon, you may even have my life.
But nothing would matter cause you would hate me
You would hate how clingy I am
You would hate how jealous I get
You would hate how many questions I ask
You would hate anything I do
You would hate ever thinking of being with me.
I need someone. And I need them fast. This is getting out on control and I can't fix it anymore.
