As soon as Lenny's words started to rung in Beam's head, the trance, which was created by Forth, broke. His thoughts re-placed with unpleasant fear.
Fear of his ex boyfriend. Fear of cheating on his husband. Fear of being disgusted in himself.
His mind filled with all the unpleasant consequences he will have to face if he give in. He squirmed in Forth's embrace. And that made Forth's iron grip around his waist tighter.
"Stop it...".Beam pushed Forth's chest with his elbow.
Forth frowned, gripping his wrist tightly with his free hand which made escaping from him quite impossible.
But it is Forth we are talking about here.
The man who Beam spent 2 years with; in the same room, in the same bed. It is quite impossible not to find out Forth's weaknesses.
Beam stopped squirming and struggling and went completely lifeless in his embrace, making himself be seen as small as possible. For the final touch, he looked up and stared at Forth under his eyelashes. "Please let go... "
He saw Forth gulping and release his wrists out of reflex . At the same time, his grip around Beam's waist loosened, not that much but just enough for Beam to knee him hard on his groin and push him away.
As soon as Forth fell on the floor, Beam ran upstairs fast as he can, muttering, 'stupid alpha male'
As he got inside his room, he locked the door and sat on the floor, leaning his back against the door.
Beam felt like the world is spinning around him. He closed his eyes, catching his breath. He felt disgusted. The places Forth touched, his face, his neck, arms and waist.... He wanted to peel the skin off them. So he can get rid of his touch forever.
Beam pulling his knees to his chest and rested his head on them, slightly shivering. He felt like crying.
He felt like crying because it was Forth.
Forth... The man he loved.
But now he knows for sure that, if there was an ounce of love for Forth in his blood, it's all gone.
Beam perked his head up when he heard the footsteps outside the door. Freaking out, he quickly checked the lock. And sighed in relief when it was properly locked.
"Are you playing playing hide and seek with me kitten?"
Beam heard Forth slurring from behind the door. His hand reflectively reached this phone and dialed Lenny's number.
Lenny wasn't picking up. He dialed again.
He heard Forth's voice again.
"Do you think if I want to have you I would let a piece of wood stop me?" Forth scoffed. "Didn't you live with me for 2 years. How can you not remember that I can break locks?"
Beam froze. He really can break locks!!
"Beam?"
Beam looked at his phone. Lenny was answering.
But he couldn't speak. He was so terrified that his voice didn't come out.
"Beam are you there?"
"Beam! speak to me! Are you OK?"
"Beam!"
"OK I'm coming home right now!"
Lenny hung up.
Forth continued torturing him with words.
"Or I can break the door. You know...it only take few kicks and it will brake in half" He slurred.
"Your husband needs much more strong doors to protect his precious little wife from me"
Beam covers him mouth with a palm muffling a cry.
"But I don't want to do that" Forth whispered. "I want you to willingly come back to me"
"Like you always do..." his voice was much vicious right then.
"Always..." he slurred. "....back to me"
Beam squeezed his eyes shut in fear and tears streamed down on his cheeks.His whole body was trembling.
Forth didn't speak no more. And holding his breath Beam waited for the door to be unlocked or broken in half.
Instead he heard the sound of the descending footsteps.
Is he really going away.... ?
Beam waited for a while. And there was no sound. His body gradually stopped shivering. But he was too afraid to relax his body or let go of the breath he has been holding.
His thoughts were jumbled and he couldn't think straight. He never thought that fear could affect a person so much like this.
He stayed on the same position, unable to move on.
SLAM!!!
Beam jumped off at the sound of a door slamming shut. His stomach turned. Is he coming back!!!???
"BEAM!!!!?"
"Beam where you!!??"
Lenny!?
"Beam!?"
He heard the sound footsteps on the wood of the stair case.Footsteps came closer and heard a knocking sound. "Beam are you inside?"
He instantly stood up to unlock the door and he was greeted with the sight of his husband.
Panting softly, Lenny looked at his husband with terrified eyes.
Beam's eyes were red and puffy. Like he had being crying and his cheeks were wet with tear stains.
"Beam... I'm so sorry! I_"
Before he could finish Beam was in his arms, hugging him tight and crying.
"Oh my God... I'm so sorry!.. I never thought...What did he do!?"
"He didn't....he just...scared me..."
Beam mumbled to his chest.
Tightening the grip around Beam's petite body, Lenny rubbed his back. "It was all my fault... I'm terribly sorry Beam... I don't think I could ever make this up to you....but I'll try ok? I'll try my best to keep you safe"
Beam didn't say anything. He just snuggled to his husband's chest because there he felt a safety and warmth he had never felt in his life.
