-zayns pov
*beep beep*
"fuck" I groan loudly while glancing at the clock on my bedside table
*6:25 am*
so that means I have 20 minutes to get ready, 45 minutes till utter hell starts again.
Now see I don't hate school entirely, more the people there. I have to act fake but I really can't complain, I was the one who made this persona of myself and now I can't escape it. anywhere I go.
see, I've made this "bad boy" image of myself and I hate it. that's not me, very far from it. I'm friends with assholes too, just to mention. I wish I could be true to me but I can't. Oh, and to make things worse, I have an overly obsessed girlfriend who I don't even like! I hate to say that, I really do I don't like leading people on but getting with her was more than being lonely, it was to save my character (very selfish sounding of me, I know but I can't risk it). hell, I didn't have a girlfriend for 5 months (after a breakup I had junior year) people were already calling me gay! not like they're wrong, I could never say that though. I could never tell the boy I love either. never....
