Obviously that last chapter was a lot but this boy right above, yeah? Is the only thing that's keeping me happy. Now don't go off saying," omg just stop you don't even really love anyone you are too young." But trust me I really do love him. It's so cheesy but I can't even to begin how much he has made me happy. Now I'm not gonna be like" oMg NoBoDy KnOwS hOw I fEeL" because that's not true. I know a lot of people that love finn just as much as I do. It's just, feel like no one can relate too what I've been through. And I really need him to know how much he has made me happy but I know that will never happen. I don't wanna say a lot about this cuz I don't wanna bore you guys or anything but I will say this. Calpurnia's music is so amazing. When I'm sad I can listen to their music and it will make me so happy, and I wish they knew that but unfortunately they never will. I wanna die so badly right now and I hate myself but then I see his smile and it makes me feel like I should stay around a little while longer:). I know this is super corny, I don't even know how to explain it anymore. Also big s/o too my ibf But she doesn't have Wattpad but literally she has been with me for a long time and she also makes me very happy. All in all, I don't know where I'd be without him. And I love you, Finn Wolfhard, always and forever.
