Ｒｅｓｔａｒｔ - Aphmau AU

¿Ｒｅｓｔａｒｔ?

n a n a

Ive been suffering for years, Nothings gotten better, rather worse.

My best friends have turned their back on me.

Rumors online say that i pay money to guys to pleasure me.

My family abuse me, in many ways, Physically, Emotionally, and Sexually.

Ive lost all my friends.

Ive lost all hope.

Ive given up.

Ｎａｎａ  POV

I sat on the end of my bed wih a notepad and pen...

Suicide note?

Correct, i started writing down, my hands shaking and tears dripping onto my paper.

I was holding back an entire army of tears, i had finnished and looked down at my messy work.

Usually i would rewrite messy handword but it wouldn't matter this time.

I wish i could just... Restart...You know?

Avoid everything, be aware of the future.

I looking down at my tear wet sleeve, i took off my jumper and looked at my Bloody arms, i was also wearing shorts, that revealed more cuts...

'what am i doing?!'

I dont wanna die, or live...
I wanna feel nothing...
I wanna be nothing- well i can check that off the list...

I put the note in my pocket and ran out of the house, and to the place of all this...

School

I ran up to the roof ignoring everyone, i was still in he shorts and strappy top.

Before i got to the roof, i stopped.

And walked back down, looking for some fimilar faces.

There, Ivy, Aph, Katelyn and Luci...

I walked up to them and tapped their shoulder.

They turned around and laughed.
I gave them the note but they just crumpled it up and continued to laugh at me.

I just ran back to the roof.

*

The cold wind blew against my cuts and wounds...

I took my hair out of the messy bun and let it free in the wind...

I hopped over a small safety fence and stood on the edge...

Ｚａｎｅ  POV

I found a Note crumpled up at my locker, opening it i saw some water marks and shaky handwriting.

I read the paper...
Well i tried...

ɪғ ʏᴏᴜʀ ʀᴇᴀᴅɪɴɢ ᴛʜɪs ʏᴏᴜ ᴘʀᴏʙᴀʙʟʏ ᴅᴏɴᴛ ᴄᴀʀᴇ.
ʙᴜᴛ ɪᴍ ᴊᴜsᴛ ʜᴇʀᴇ ᴛᴏ sᴛᴀᴛᴇ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴍᴇ, ɴᴀɴᴀ ᴍᴇᴏᴋᴀ ᴍᴄᴄʟᴀɴᴀʜᴀɴ, ɪs ɴᴏᴛ ᴡʜᴏ ʏᴏᴜ ᴛʜɪɴᴋ sʜᴇ ɪs.
ɪ ᴅᴏɴᴛ ɢɪᴠᴇ ᴍᴏɴᴇʏ ᴛᴏ ɢᴜʏs ᴛᴏ ᴘʟᴇᴀsᴜʀᴇ ᴍᴇ.
ɪᴠᴇ ɴᴇᴠᴇʀ ʜᴀᴅ ᴀɴʏ sᴏʀᴛ ᴏғ ʀᴇʟᴀᴛɪᴏɴsʜɪᴘ.

ʙᴜᴛ ɪɴsᴛᴇᴀᴅ ɪᴠᴇ ʙᴇᴇɴ ᴘʜʏsɪᴄᴀʟʟʏ, ᴇᴍᴏᴛɪᴏɴᴀʟʟʏ ᴀɴᴅ sᴇxᴜᴀʟʟʏ ᴀʙᴜsᴇᴅ ʙʏ ᴍʏ ғᴀᴍɪʟʏ.

ɪᴠᴇ ʙᴇᴇɴ ᴄᴜᴛᴛɪɴɢ sɪɴᴄᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ғɪʀsᴛ ʀᴜᴍᴏʀ ᴄᴀᴍᴇ ᴀʀᴏᴜɴᴅ, ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴡᴀs? ᴏʜ, ɪᴛ ᴡᴀs ᴛʜᴇ ʀᴜᴍᴏʀ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ɪ ᴡᴀs ᴅᴀᴛɪɴɢ ᴛʜᴇ ᴛᴇᴀᴄʜᴇʀ!

ᴇᴠᴇʀʏᴏɴᴇs ᴡᴏʀᴅs ʜᴜʀᴛ ᴍᴇ, ᴇsᴘᴇᴄɪᴀʟʟʏ ᴍʏ ғʀɪᴇɴᴅs, ᴍʏ ғᴀᴍɪʟʏ ᴀɴᴅ ᴇᴠᴇɴ ᴍʏ ᴏᴡɴ. ɪ ʙᴇʟɪᴇᴠᴇᴅ ɪɴ ʏᴏᴜ, ᴍʏsᴇʟғ, ᴇᴠᴇʀʏᴏɴᴇ.

sᴏ ʀɪɢʜᴛ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ɴᴏᴡ, ɪ sʜᴏᴜʟᴅ ʙᴇ ᴏɴ ᴀ ᴄᴏɴᴄʀᴇᴛᴇ ғʟᴏᴏʀ ᴅᴇᴀᴅ, ʟɪғᴇʟᴇss, ᴀɴᴅ ɢᴇᴛᴛɪɴɢ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ɪ ᴅᴇsᴇʀᴠᴇ.

There was more to read but i didnt care about that, Nana was committing  Suicide...

I dashsed to the school roof as he bell rang.

"Baby Brother? Where are you going-?"

I ignored Garroth and kept going, i wasnt losing her.

She was my best friend, she was there for me when i needed to talk...
I CANNOT lose her...

I burst through the doots as i saw her standing in a T-Shape facing me, her eyes closed and her feet over the edge.

Just then she leaned back and plummeted to her death...

Ｎａｎａ POV

The wind felt nice, i took a deep breath, my one of my last breaths.

I heard he busy traffic near by, i put my hands out and painted a fake smile on my face, i closed my eyes as what i supposed was the roof door burst open, i ignored it and leaned back...

The end-

I woke up in what looked like a kitchen?
I was laying on a bed, there was someone there...

It had a lilac robe on covering its face.

"Why?" it asked

It was female?

"You know why"

I hugged my knees, and looked down, and noticed i had no cuts, bruises or any marks.

"So, Nana, Do you wanna continue?"

I looked over in shock.

"Continue?"

"Continue where you left off, or restart from any point in life you want".

"I thought we all died and became nothing?" i asked

"Not all, only people who are important to me..."

'She' turned around, it was..

"Aph...? You bitch!"

I spat at her, what kind of prank is this!

"Your a little Bitch!" i spat again

"Listen, Im not YOUR Aph"

"Why would i continue in hell?" i asked, dropping that subject

She smiled "So you could see who burst through the doors" she smirked.

"Restart, To a day before Highschool"

She looked shocked "Are you sure?"

"Yes! Now just do it already!"

I tightly closed my eyes, when i opened them i was...

Home... If i can even call it that...

I felt different.

Time for a new me... Maybe a new name...

I looked around my pink room and my anime posters.

Kawaii~Chan...?

I hope you enjoyed this lil Pilot.
There will be Zane~Chan and othter forms of shipping but please note this is an AU (Alternative Universe) so not everything will be the same, but please Vote if you can and share if you want! Also im strangely addicted to the song '-'