Always (a matthew espinosa story)

Always

chapter 1

Hell. is all i can say about highschool.

is full of jerks,players,sluts,bullies just in overall mean and cruel people. But that's life.

let me inturduce myself my name is Marine angela lee cabello falls, long name isn't it. i have long black hair and crytal blue eyes i have huge glasses but i mostly wear contacts and I'm a nerd and i pass my classes with A's. I have a mom and dad and a beautiful sister name Madison. But my parents travel a lot so I'm left taking care of my sister which is fine. i may seem normall but that isn't the point here. you see i get bullied. Quite a lot.

"she probley has aids"

"shes such a schumbag'

"why wont you kill yourself you attention whore"

"eww just look how pethedic she is, what a slut"

"you fat pig"

"LOSE SOME WEIGHT UGLY COW'

is all i hear around here, man people are so cruel. I've been depress for 6 years, just trap in my own mind, I was played by my ex boyfriend, raped, physically abused, I started cutting I was the girl no one liked, the girl that wished she was dead already. That's until I met Luke He was a drug dealer and was constantly running away from the cops. He also made me a drug addict, we will get high thogether and drink, I felt free, i love the way it took me away from my worries but at the same time it took My pain away. He was my everything, he made me happy. He will protect me and just made me feel, beautiful. He loved me, and I loved him we will have fun together and just do dumb things. Those days were the days that I never wanted to end, I felt free, he made me feel, Normal. Yet i still wasn't happy I was still bullied, beaten up, and almost raped. I was constantly trying to take my pain away by drinking Yet those memories haunt me, so that's why I don't trust anyone except Luke, he always calmed and held me every time I had a panic attack he was there for me.

But then came the day, he was taken away from me and I stared cutting again . I'm growing weaker every day, just loosing myself every fucking day, oh how i wish for it to be all over. I was constantly trap in a world that is my mind, I miss him everyday, it hurts. so. Fucking. Much. He loved me with every beat of his cocain heart, we were happy, I was happy, I didn't have a care in the world. One day i took it too far, I overdose I was rush to the hospital and almost died, I wish I did. I Still I didn't learned my lesson, I kept drinking and doing drugs just to get my mind of him. He said he will come back so far,he hasn't.

I was walking through the halls of whashinton high school (A/N im not sure if its a school so bear with me) home of the carnels yeah horay *sarcasam* i was going to my loocker to get my books out for my frist period when all of the sudden jessica and her bitch crew came. You see the group is called "Bad Intentions" i dont why they called themselves that but jessica is the leader and the ruler of washinton high school. she goes and bosses people around and dose her bitching and stuff but if you ask me i call them "the plastics" why because there fake. Then you have us the "misfits" we're the nobodys and everyone makes fun of us and dose pranks on us but what can i say, im used to it. jessica walks up to me and throws my books on the ground and slam my loocker door "why look who shows up isn't little marine lee falls" Jessica said as she chews her gum. man shes annoying i thought.

"bitch why won't you just die tonight and everyone here will be just be happy and not have to deal with your ass roaming the halls how dose that sound" she said as she push me against my loocker door and pushed me on the floor

those words hurt but i need to be strong and hold it in and plus if she saw me crying I'll get beat up, i then saw her and her crew walking and laughing with there heals tapping on the floor. i then got up and grab my books from the floor and then i saw my friend brooklyn miller. She was the sweetest, she had caramel long hair and emerald eyes, she understood me.