JENLISA Oneshots

12. Hurt

Jennie's POV

I haven't told anyone, but I admire everything about you. Your smile, your cheekiness, when your eyes twinkle, your beauty, everything

One day I just realised how beautiful you really were, you made my heart beat more faster

I tried to ignore it, but everyday you caught my eye. I would catch myself staring at you, admiring every aspect of your beauty. I didnt know what this feeling was...

But, it couldn't be...

I wanted to be closer to you, wanting to make you smile, laugh, so I could brighten your day

But, when you were with someone else, it broke a piece of me. I would pretend to ignore you both and smile, but it would hurt, stinging like it was a real wound. I would go to bed thinking about how someone else made you smile and not me, it would make me cry, thinking that it should've been me

Why would I bother crying over you, when you don't even think of me?!

Love. Admiration. That's what. I never realised that my first love could hurt me so badly. But here I am, still trying to pick up the broken parts of me, while i fall apart even more

But as days pass, we would talk less and less, pretending everything was alright. I just wish you could hug me so tight that all my broken pieces would stick back together. But, why does it seem like you ignore my existence? I tried to ignore you and move on, but something in me is still holding on, hoping that it would be alright again

It would break me, how you both would hug each other so tight right in front of me, choose each other and leaving me feeling so lonely, seeing you two so happy

Everyday I would lock myself in my room, crying and wishing everything will be alright, trying to get away from the feeling it won't be. I would remember how we both were so close, happy and content with each other, but that was the past. And now youre happier with someone else

What have you done to me? If only you knew the pain you caused me

I can't bear to look at you again because I know that if I look into your dark orbs, I would surely realise how much I still love you and go through the pain and suffering I exprerienced

How could you have the right to do this

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