11:30pm sunday
(talking to himself while he is in bed looking at the sealing)
Being nice is tiring, being nice is draining me down, being nice annoys me, being nice makes me want to take a nife and stab it on my thight, being nice is really annoying...
Trying to do the best I can to always help others, always thinking one step ahead of what I will do or say so others don't get hurt o feel bad, not doing bad things, always apologising even when I am not suppose to just to make sure the other person don't get mad or feel bad because I'm right if I am having an argument with another person.... (exhale with while rolling back the eyes) if only my brain could let me do things different from time to time and not just always by the right way... I should just fall sleep, getting rejected by another girl while she says "well I've never seen you that way since we always been such good friends.." is making me fell even more annoying
Well at least I'm getting use to it, so it doesn't hurt that much anymore...
07:15am monday
(talking to himself) Good morning sun, good morning moon and all the beautiful creatures in the universe I hope you all have a good day as always, at least mine can't be as craapy as yesterday... But whatever...
(getting up and going to the bathroom to take a shaweer and brush his teeth, putting clothes on... Standing in front of the door) I left the closte's door open... Agh... I have to learn to control my freaking ocd problems... So today I'll leave it open.. (touching his index finger with his thumb of the right hand while making circles with it around his finger print, walkig an closing the door... After three minutes coming back and closing the closte's door) I have a problem...
(walking in the street, while talking to himself) and now I have to go back to work and pretend I haven't been rejected again and that nothing happened... Well at least that was it, that was the last chance that I gave me to gather the courage and ask a girl that, so now I just have to stop dreaming about having a girlfriend... Well 22 years and I only have kissed two girls in my life and probably they wouldn't have kissed me if it had been during those stupid games... (rolling back his eyes) I'm pathetic...
09:30am
(opening door, and looking around, after passing through a hallway, arrives at a desk where he puts his bag and start to take out a notebook)
-chris: (in a sleepy voice) good morning
-Good morning, you look like you didn't sleep last night.
-chris: not much, Janet keep me up all night(gives a "you know doing what" face).
-ohh... So you call your left's hand name is Janet now?
- chris: yeah.... Shut up... I jus end up playing video games all night after the date, I told her if she wanted to stay over in my apartment but she said she wanted to take it slow, so yeah...
- hahaha I told you, that you have to be patient if you wanted to..
-chris: whatever man, what would you know anyway, did you ask that girl out? Ehh
- the answer is the same as always so... Whatever.
-Chris: men you sure have a bad luck with girls...
But honestly you always pick the ones that are out of your league... Our league to be honest.
-whatever man.
-Ashley: good morning guys(smile).
- good morning(smile).
-Chris: hey(lift his left hand and wave a little).
[Chris was with his face on his desk]
-Ashley: is it me or is he always sleepy?.
-is not you haha.
-Ashley: haha
-(looking at the door) good morning guys(smiling).
-Caroline : good mornig(while yawning).
-Jhon: good morning sunshines haha.
-ohh today am I your sunshine, yesterday I was your cutipie, wasn't I? Haha.
-John: haha well it doesn't matter what I call you doesn't it? as long as I do, right honey?.
