My Thoughts ☆ Diary

💔 12/03/18 | final post 💔

Today I was so happy . .

I was in a good mood . .

But after the last few hours I'm not the same

I'll never be the same . .

This isn't a rant cause I don't need nor want one

This is a goodbye . .

It holds too many memories and frankly I want to drown in depression and wait for it to kill me

Juliet , Http-Earl , XCielPhantomX , Http-Historia . .

She was one of my best friends and she's gone . .

And she took part of me with her .

I'm tired and numb and I'm done feeling this way

I'm tired of laying emotionless for hours on end in my room .

I'm tired of scarring the one person that has given me everything

I'm sorry I'm a failure
I'm sorry that I'm broken
I'm sorry I feel this way
I'm so sorry for breathing and being alive

I won't be killing myself

I can't pull through with it cause I'm too terrified

I'm terrified of what lies beyond this life

I'm just not going to be posting anymore

I'm not going to be here very often

I'll be here for one person and that's it .

And maybe , just maybe . . I'll return . .