mafia. | nct (continue)

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(a;n : THIS IS THE CONTINUE OF THE FIRST PART BECAUSE I LOST MY PASSWORD,IF YOU HAVEN'T ALREADY READ THE PARTS GO TO taethonghyuck

MINA'S POV:

I don't know how many days I've been doing this.Stare at my wall and cry myself into sleep.I haven't been eating or taking care of myself.
Since I locked myself in my room,no one was interfering the time I needed and took for myself.

Only Jeno has been in my room.
We haven't talked but he just sat there and gave me a small smile here and there.But even he couldn't do anything against my state of mind.

"Mina.."Jisung knocked at my door."Please come out of there.You need to eat.."He sounded so worried and it broke my heart.I quickly pulled out a piece of paper and and a pen and wrote on it:

"i will shower and come out then okay?"

I shoved the folder paper threw under the door and heard Jisung agree.Unpowerful,I went to the bathroom and took at a glance at the miserable looking myself in the mirror.My eye-bags were really dark and my skin was almost white.Since I haven't washed my hair for a few days,they were pretty greasy.

Quickly,I pulled of all my clothes and went under the shower.Eventho,I felt sick,I enjoyed the warm water that came from the shower head.I did my shower routine and wrapped myself in a towel,after coming out.

In my room,I put on baggy and wide clothes,simply to make sure they wouldn't notice the weight loss.My hair were still wet,so I tied them together.

Even though I wasn't good,I felt sorry towards them so I needed to get better.

As soon as the boys,that were sitting in the DREAM dorms living,heard the door lock open,they turned towards me.

"Mina.."

"Hey guys.."I awkwardly waved.

"You are back?"

"I was never gone..."

Me,Donghyuck,Jisung and Renjun just looked at each other for five minutes straight until Taeyong came in,talking to Lucas.

"Mina.."

"Tae.."

When he hugged me,I just started crying and wrapped my thin arms around his torso.
He gently stroked my hair and talked some things soothingly in my ear.

"It will be fine,okay?We all have been there.All of us are here for you.There is nothing-"Taeyong paused while pulling away and grabbing my waist.

"You didn't eat at all?God Mina..."He got loud for a second but tamed his voice immediately after he saw me flinch.

"I am sorry.." We said at the same time.

"Mina,you should eat.."Another voice said from behind Taeyong and I saw sad smiling Jeno.I just shook my head.

"I don't feel like eating."

Not looking at anyone,I walked past everyone and went upstairs to the rooftop.Since it was late afternoon it was shortly before the sunset.In my pocket,I felt my box of cigarettes,that I stole from Jaehyun a few nights before.

I walked towards the edge and sat down,letting my feet hang down the wall.

For a few minutes,I sat there and looked at clouds turning into a pink orange color.

"Sitting on the edge is dangerous."

I didn't even needed to look,to know that it's Jeno.

"I am dangerous too!"

I said cockily,taking out a cigarette and lighting it up between my lips.

"That's not good for your health,Mina."

"Well,I don't care.Being in a gang and the daughter of a gang boss is also not good for my health."I puffed once and slowly turned my head towards Jeno who just stared at the sky.

As soon as he realized me staring at him he looked at me too.

Sneakily,he snatched the cigarette out of my hand and puffed too.Then he just grabbed my chin gently and signalized me to part my lips,so that he can breath his smoke in my mouth.

"Taeyong will kill me for this."He said while I let the smoke go to my lungs before breathing it out.
Before I was able to respond we heared the rooftop door open and pulled away.

"Oh guys,I didn't know you were..uhm..I need to go."Ten left quicker then he came.

Awkwardly we both pulled away and Jeno got up.

"I'll make sure he won't talk."

And I nodded.

"And quit smoking."

I nodded.

"And eat."

I started giggling.

"And put on-"

"I got it,Dad."

He laughed and walked towards the door.

When I turned back around,I just sat there and looked at the now sinking sun.The sky was completely pink and everything just looked how a perfect evening,ignoring the fact that I was a stray and am now part of the gang,already shot a man and that I was now sitting on the edge of a building,smoking at the age of 16.

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I don't know how long I have been sitting there but I got in when it was really dark,and since it was summer it must've been late.

Sadly,I realized the box of cigarettes were empty so I had to steel new ones.It had became an addiction and it just help calming down.

"Uhm,Mina,I put a box of pizza in your room so if your hungry,just eat it."

Doyoung told me when I passed the main living room.I simply smiled at him and walked quickly in my room.I didn't want everybody to know that I smoked a whole package in a time of 3 hours.

Luckily,no one approached me and I changed my room as soon as I closed the door behind me.I decided to put on shorts and a crop hoodie,because I haven't planned on going out of the room today anyways.

For a moment,I thought about actually eating but the thought made me sick.

I don't know but I think something triggered me today.I had no,absolutely no feelings in my body,no guiltiness or sadness and no affection towards other people.

Besides him maybe.