One Jump and I'm GONE: Suga FF sad

Three Months Before

Warning: This episode includes suicide attempts and self harm. If you are sensitive to this than I suggest you not continue this ff. Enjoy!

My grip on the blade tightened.

I couldn't handle it anymore.

The pressure.

It was too much.

"Minho oppa's not here so he can't stop me anymore." I thought

I checked the door to make sure that it was locked then I began.

Deep cuts in my skin

Some long, some short

Each contact with my skin sent blood splurging out.

Each cut saying "I know your pain."

Each cut made me forget about my past, and made me focus on all the pain

I made cuts on my arms, and on my legs.

I kept cutting till my arms and legs were filled with blood.

Once I was satisfied, I showered

I watched the blood drain into the drain. I smiled

I harshly rubbed the soap across my skin making me want to scream in pain

But, I held it in, because pain was my only escape from those memories.

I bandaged myself up and changed into casual clothes, and went outside.

 Walking aimlessly, I walked at a slow somber pace. I felt my cuts screaming and throbbing at me, but like always, I ignored it. Finding myself in an alley with dark brick walls surrounding me, I scanned my surroundings. Fence, brick walls, dumpster, dark pavement, rats and mice giving no notice to me, and whiffs of used cigarettes and fragments of the latest drug. People. Seven people to be exact. Each sharing a look with each other.  Each looking at me as a lion does when finding its prey. Shoot. Got7. With each step they took they got closer and closer, and my heart rate went faster and faster. I reevaluated my surroundings, and realized what a mess I got into. Brick wall surrounding everything but where they were, and an insignificant amount of room. I looked at the wall again. Lining the wall was a fence. In front of the wall was the dumpster. I did quick calculations. I decided to go for it. 

I made a quick dash for the dumpster, hoisted myself atop of it. I heard them send random curses at me, and felt their loud footsteps shaking the fence and the dumpster I was atop of. Fuck this shit. I quickly jumped over the wall, and to my horror, the ground, so far away, was speeding towards me. The last thing I heard was a crack, and the various curses coming from the boys. I let my eyes close as a warm liquid hugged my body. 

Yoongi's Pov

I hate this fucking 5-year-old shit. As per the suggestion of Jin hyung, we were playing hide and seek. After finishing all the promotional items for our comeback, we were drained of energy and exhausted. Jin told us to get vitamin c, so the maknae suggested hide and go seek. So all seven of us went out and played hide and seek. I hated the idea with all of my soul, yet I found myself wandering down the road looking for a place to hide. With each step I took, Jin's obnoxious voice got farther, and this labored breath got louder. Curious, I went towards the sound. To my horror, I found a tiny figure with a disfigured looking body position shrouded in a pool of blood. 

"Jin-hyung!" I yelled as loud as I could, but I supposed he couldn't hear me over his own loud voice. The things I do for people. I started running closer to the voice, and found myself looking at a grown man with hands over his eyes and yelling to the point where his vein was popping out. I stared at disbelief, but then I realized the severity of the situation.  

Jin finished counting, and locked eyes with me. "Ready or not here I- I found Yoongi! Yoongi, what did I say about hide and seek. I know it isn't your choice of extra curricular, and you'd rather curl up in the dark like a hermit, and shrivel up and-" Cutting him off, I said, "I saw...a bloody body, and I don't know if she's alive" I said.

Jin's always happy expression, changed into one of worry. "Where?" Jin said

I pointed to the alley.

Jin ran there yelling,"Dummy, did you call 911?" I shook my head. "What are you waiting for?" The vein was really prominent now. "Call now! After that, gather the others!" I fumbled to grab my phone, and typed in those numbers. After explaining the situation, I looked at the time. 11:11. Prematurely, I made a wish for her health, and went in search of the rest.

As I gathered the others they greeted me with a face of disbelief, saying something close to "You're not Jin-hyung." And all I said was, "Bloody girl, we're going to the hospital." And they all ran to the place where we parked the car. We heard a siren, and directed the doctors to the place where I found the girl. Jin hyung went into the ambulance, and the rest went into the car to follow. Namjoon went into the driver seat, and glanced nervously at the steering wheel. "Goddamn Joon, I'll drive."  We switched but to my shock, the ambulance was no longer in the view. I cursed at Namjoon for taking too long, and I fished out my phone again. 11:26. I scrolled through my contacts. Second mom, Second mom, where are you Second mom? Aha, Second mom! I clicked the contact, but the phone sent me to voice mail.  

I glanced through the window at the numerous hospitals ahead, and I cursed at Seoul for being so big. I glanced at the nervous bunch and at the pale Hoseok still shook up about the scene. "Guys, lets go eat lunch. I can't reach Jin hyung, and we can't follow the ambulance anymore. Who's up for some lamb skewers? My treat." I tried my best to be energetic, but it all flattened out at the end. They all glanced at each other, and then looked at me and shrugged. So I turned the car around and headed in the opposite direction in which the bloody girl and Jin were headed.