Moment For Life

Five years ago

    KAYLA***

~Pills and potions we're over dosing I'm angry but I still love you.Pills and potions we're overdosing can't stand it but I still love you. I still love i still love.They can never make me hate you even though what you were doing wasn't tasteful.Even though you out here looking so ungrateful.I'm going to keep it moving classy and graceful.I told you there ain't no friends in the game you ain't learn that yet.All the bridges that came over don't burn that yet.Niggas want respect but ain't earn that yet.Self righteous in entitled and there swearing on the Bible when they love you in they know the difference in your rivals but I don't wish death on them I just reflect on them~

I was laying on my bed crying and listening to Nicki Minaj's Pills and potions.A bitch was in her feelings forreal. I was thinking about all the good times me and my dad and mom used to have.It was a lot of them.I remember when my dad bought me a fish and it died and my mom bought another one just like it and said it was my fish I walked in my room and came out with the bowl and was like mom where's Mariana and she was like right in your hand and I was like no I know what happen it died and you bought a new one.OMG!Her mouth was open she was like oh shit I'm caught.But she asked Mr how I knew and I told her because he was dead the morning before.But the reason she thought she did it is because she was in my room cleaning up and she had a pencil and it flipped in the tank and she thought she did it.But I told my dad and he said we'd buy another one after school. We laughed at her all night.It was just crazy.But then I remember the bad times.The times when my dad didn't come back and he came back the next afternoon.He and my mom would argue and I would just sit on the step and watch.He would leave and not come back for two weeks I would cry and try and call him but he didn't answer.When he came back I wouldn't talk to him.Basically, Everynight he wouldn't come home.He would come early in the morning to drop me off at school.I even remember five to six years ago when I was 13 and my father was dead they said he had a closed casket because how bad he looked.Nobody told me about him being jumped he was shot in the heart that's what I heard.If you asked me shit wasn't adding up.I got out the bed and went downstairs into the kitchen.I opened the refrigerator and got the pickles and ketchup."Bae that shit is nasty"Kobe said with his face scrunched up."Its good to me and its yo fault you made me this way"I said."Shutup fat ass"He spoke laughing at me.I started crying."Bae what's wrong"He asked sincerely. "I'm.. fat and ugly... you even said it "I spoke crying harder. "Bae I was just playing come here"He spoke grabbing me by my hand."Your not fat your just pregnant and thats my mini me in there I was just playing Bae"He said rubbing my back.I just cried and cried shit I didn't even know why."Bae how you been today"He asked."Horrible I don't think I can do it I miss him so much"I said crying harder."Bae its okay I'm here I know he looking down on you"He said.The reason he asked that was because today is the day he died and today five years ago is the day I went through so much shit I couldn't take it.I was hurt my mom got hooked.So much shit there was men running in and out the house my mom was paying for her fix.I would stay in my room hiding in the closet listening to all the moans,groans, slaps,b word this, and b word that.My mama said I had to stay in the closet because the bad people might try and get me. Meaning if I don't be quiet they'll come get me because she didn't do what they told her.Kobe had hugged me all night rubbing my back he had made me eat salad and told me I couldn't eat that 'pickle shit' no more because its not healthy for you or the baby in his exact words no lie. He carried me up to our room unbuttoned my pants and shirt so I was just in my bra and panties.He went over to his dresser and opened the drawer.He grabbed one of his shirts and came and put it on me. "Goodnight Bae"He said kissing my forehead."Goodnight"I said sitting up to hug and kiss him.He kissed me for a long time.He grabbed his phone,keys,wallet and left.I then fell into a deep sleep.

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