~•ThE nOtEs•~

•My stupid LoVe-sIcK heart•

Dear ...,

That’s what i’ll call you and that’s what you are to me because every time i seem to mess things up you start ignoring me for days weeks months why not go for a year, I’ll never be good enough for you will i because of my nagging and complaining, You think your thee only person that ever got his heart broken well guess what so did mine get over it hurts like fucking hell, My life will never be the same again because of you.

I trusted you with my heart and my soul i let you come into my life i gave you all that i had within me which was my love for you, I know i messed things up i said things that i shouldn’t have if i did i only said it out of anger which i always said i thought you would know me by now, But every time i did that i ended up apologising to you over and over again for all my mistake, But you never ever apologise every time you go off on me you were always Mr perfect i took every blame for everything i did even for yours because you were always Mr right all the time,

I told you time and time again i had feelings for you i even declared my love for you I told you things that i never told any men before i open up my heart to you because I LOVE YOU, I just don’t understand where i went wrong Why you could give me false hope on love and LIE straight to my heart, Damn it im angry with you but im so fucking confuse with you too i hate you so much, There a lot of things going inside my brain my mind not thinking straight right now, But it’s my stupid love sick heart that’s keep making me get even weaker and blue because of you it kept crying out your stupid name why you i mean ”WHY” YOU treat me like ”CRAP”.

For a second there i truly thought you love me at all but that was all a big show for you and a joke for me right? , I PRAY to GOD that one day there is a good decent men out there with a really great heart full of love waiting out there just for me, I’ve learn a lot from you from what we had or at least what we had i don’t know really but never to rush on things unless you are certainty that your 100% in love with each other.

But i fail in so many level trying to please you in so many ways how stupid was I, You already made your mind up about me and i get that i really do, Well i guess it’s my turn to say goodbye to you loving you was the best thing i know but it was also hurtful as well, You knew it and i knew it but i had to challenge your love in so many ways with my nagging and complaining to see if you really did love me or not, And if i really did had a special place in that beautiful heart of yours but i didn’t and that what really hurts me the most .

Thank you for putting up with me and also walking away from me you didn’t even say goodbye you simply went away and block me in silence, We maybe had our ups and down we weren’t perfect just two ordinary people making simplest mistake and hurting and breaking each others heart again and again, Thank goodness we both learnt something from our mistake and look where it got us not being together.

i know i should be hating you right now, But it was your decision that left me and i can’t change that i only can accept that which im going to do right now, It hurt so much damn it hurt so much why love have to be like this ….. just wiping the tears as they fell from my eyes gently they slide slowly down my cheeks ”DAMN” it hurts so much WHY, I know it sounds crazy but damn it i got to let you go somehow i just got to let you go….,To heal my heart and find love again i need to start fresh so im letting go to the ones that have broken me.

Goodbye my past love hope we don’t ever meet again in the nearest future your the last person i want to be putting my trust into, I wish nothing but the best for you…..but.., From the most unfortunate heart no one special to you just your pass saying Goodbye Forever…….

no one special just me saying goodbye…

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