Lady Of Wrath

+CHAPTER 3+ Finding libido

Family~

A small word but it holds so much power over me. A few people that have so much control on me. I'm a master at pretending that I'm fine and somewhere in pretending, I have started to believe that I'm fine. 

I can spend months in my happy and chill mode but sometimes I feel everything a little too much. 

Dear Mom,
Do you miss me? I have left my childhood behind. . .

Shake it off!!

A few times on my work I had lashed out on my fellows. One minute we were joking and in the next minute I burst into tears for no specific reason. It mostly happens when I keep my feelings locked within myself. 

It took me two years to shape myself into a strong person or to act like one.

It was the time when I stopped 

Fighting 

Crying 

Trying 

For others. . . For my loved ones only to find the lost me. Somewhere in loving them I had totally lost myself.

It was the time when I found myself. . .

I'm a shitty person who just pretends to be strong all the time. A girl who do crazy things to take her mind off her problems. A girl who's fault was that she was looking out for her family. . .

When I started my job I was so scared. I used to think that why would anyone want to be my companion when my own family didn't want me in their life. 

An ugly girl. . .

An outcast in the society filled with beautiful girls. . .

I'm a cancer survivor and appearance means a lot to me. 

After chemotherapy I lost my hairs, confidence, weight, my attitude in short I lost everything but my family was always there for me. My brothers were there for me. I was always pampered like a princess that's why I'm not used to people talking to me rudely. 

Or more like I was not used before but now I can dish as much shit as much someone throws my way.

In the past I had no social life. Actually I didn't even had a life outside my family because I never wished for one but now I don't have a family in my life. And to overcome that lost I have built my own social circle.

I have made an independent life for myself where people don't know about my possessive brothers and fathers... Where no one know that I have two billionaire fathers.

I look at myself in the mirror. Green eyes were staring back at me. My appearance has changed a lot since I left home. My once blonde hairs are now brown and their length is upto my shoulders but thanks to the extensions that they fall just above my hips. I'm wearing a micro mini skirt with a backless black blouse that leaves nothing for imaginations. 

"Jes are you sure you want to do this..?" Maddy said nervously. 

"Jeez Maddy stop being a pussy and if it helps, you can think that I'm just going to have premarital sex!" I tried to lighten his mood.